I'm Coming Home

Little by little his sobs started to calm, until they slowed to a near stop. There was still tears trickling down his face, but her tongue made quick work of them. Serefina hummed softly, nuzzling his cheeks, behinds his ears, and placing a few loving nips on his jawline. Her lips quivered slightly as she pulled back, fighting a snarl when he spoke of them helping in their own way. Bullshit. This didn't look like help, not at all. A brow rose as she pulled back and tried to meet Voltage's gaze, her burning anger so vivid. "This doesn't look like help, Voltage. Did they allow you to grieve? Did they help you out? You're as skinny as can be Volt, that's not fucking helping!" She snarled, the strength of her fire growing. Her claws bit into the ground as she stared at him with her hard gaze, tail lashing behind her like an angered cat. "It looks like they just left you to rot. They don't know you like I do. I should have been here to shove food down your throat and make sure you are sleeping. You look like shit, brother, honestly. And where the hell was our family through all of this?" she asked in anger, before she blinked rapidly, taking a small step back. As soon as it flared up her anger seemed to die away, ears once more pressing to her black head. "I should have been here..." But she wasn't, was she? Still, she expected the others to at least look after their sensitive brother! But nothing, this was nothing. And where were they now? Their depressed brother left pack lands and not a single wolf even showed up to make sure that he was okay, or to offer him aide if he was off to search. Close family her ass.

He told her that she had missed so much, and the weight of the grief pushed down on her again. " I know, I am so sorry. I should have never left, I realize that now. I left for my selfish reasons, I needed to... work things out I guess. I felt like I was losing you, like you were replacing me with others." Serefina said, raising her paw as soon as the words left her mouth to stop his protests. Because she knew that he would fight it, but she needed to finish. "I was jealous of others getting to see the side of you that I claimed as my own. I was selfish, and wanted you all to myself. Seeing everyone find their special someone just... made me realize that I will probably die an old maid. I have too much fire to be tied down and tamed, you know this. But never before did I think that I... that I actually wanted that. A family of my own. And you Volt, you were so happy. I had never seen you like that, and I had never been able to make you feel that way. I guess it was just a huge mix of things all at once and when the pups came I just... I just couldn't." Serefina said with a sigh, putting her paw back down on the earth. "So I left, looking for what you had I guess. Or just needing to get away from all the mushy stuff." The woman knew that this wasn't about her, that it was about Voltage right now, but he deserved an explanation, the reason why she just got up and left. She had missed so much, and probably hurt him more than she realized. "But... I heard your howl. I guess that was on the day you lost her, or maybe soon after when you were looking for her. It broke my heart, and I knew that I had to come back. That I was foolish for ever having taken off. But I am here now, for you Voltage. I would do anything for you."

Her ears pulled forward when her brother went on to explain what had been done so far, her head nodding along with his words. "Perhaps its time to go to the packs that you are not allied with. I am sure they will answer a simple question if she has been found. If you like I could do it, I don't smell like Dono anymore and they would have no reason to turn me away. You boys never really did reach out to all the packs out there, so I doubt that they were all asked. Its... a start, right?" She asked hopefully. Sere knew that for as long as Voltage didn't know where Illume was, that he would stay this way. Skinny and miserable. "If you haven't found a body then I say that's a good thing. It means she's still out there. Can't you feel her, Volt? Can't you feel her energy?" She asked, taking a step forward to nuzzle into his coat. "We will find her, don't you worry. And you are allowed to grieve, as much as you want. But be sure to be there for Current, I am sure that she feels just as badly as you. You need to start taking better care of yourself, you here me? Gaia and Current need you more now than ever. It doesn't mean you have to be strong all the time, but you can't let yourself wither away from them. Got it?" She said with a firm nod. She wasn't above literally shoving food down his throat and knocking him out if he needed to sleep, and he should know that.

When her electric brother moved on to share what Astrea had said, her rage came back with a vengeance. She let out a deep throated growl, her teeth gnashing together. "You are nothing like our parents! How dare that little wench say something like that!" she roared, the desire to bite into her stupid star dusted tail making her salivate. Jaws opened and snapped shut as if she was going just that, her whole body ridged. "You will ever give up like they did, and you didn't send her away! You are allowed to feel pain, to feel loss. You're not a damn unemotional prick! You feel things stronger than any of them do, just like me. They don't understand, but oh do I ever want to make her. Or to at least feel the amount of pain that you are going through." she hissed. If she saw Astrea now there would be no stopping her, she would bite that girl and make her apologize for what she said. No one knew the pain that their parents caused like Voltage did, something that they all should know. They didn't have to see what he saw, what he found. He made damn well sure of it that nothing could be found if they went to check, their bodies had been buried. She knew that, she had gone there to see their old home. Serefina couldn't help but look for their graves, and just sat there and stared at them. Hoping she would feel something, but she didn't. She stopped caring for her parents the day that they had sent Voltage away. While she hadn't believed their deaths at first, now she just... didn't care. It was their fault that she had missed all those years with Voltage at her side. She would never forgive them for that.

Realizing that Voltage was getting upset again, she tried to control her inner rage by taking a few deep breaths. She stretched forward and nuzzled him stiffly, seeing the tears well up in his eyes again. But she was here now, she was back. She would beat anyone up who dared to compare Voltage -- or anyone -- to their parents. The youngest litter didn't understand like the older ones, and they probably never would. But to have the guts to do that, oh damn it pissed her off to no end.

"Burn Baby Burn"