Looking in the mirror
Dalren
Defender
10-05-2021, 11:38 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-05-2021, 11:39 AM by Dalila. Edited 1 time in total.)
Dalila fidgeted and shifted uneasily while she waited for Siren to join her, pacing a couple of times across the room while she tried to gather her thoughts. She had thought a lot about how she would explain everything to Siren, but now that she was here it all felt scrambled and not good enough. The guilt was eating her alive and the uncertainty of how Siren would react kept her on edge. A few moments passed and then Siren's delicate form crossed through the doorway, making her ears fold back as she looked at the beautiful Queen and how she looked silhouetted in the moonlight that came from the room's long window. Her heart ached at the thought of losing this woman's love, but if that's what Siren wanted once she knew the truth Dalila knew she couldn't deny Siren that reality. She briefly moved past Siren to gently close the door behind her, not shutting it all the way so that if the pups made a sound they would hear, but enough that it would help block out some of the sound of their voices. Turning to face Siren again she sighed and settled onto her haunches, her pale gaze fixed on the floor in front of her as she wrestled with the shame that threatened to eat her alive. "Siren, I... I'm so sorry," she said softly, shrinking into herself. "I drank one of the bottles of wine that the boy from The Hallows brought because I was trying to relax so I could get some sleep... This heat has just been awful and instead of making me go to sleep when I was drunk I..." She whined softly, turning her head away so there was no chance she might see Siren's reaction. "I went to Chimera. I begged him to help. Aliana was there... I... I slept with her too. Chimera kept us both there for the rest of the night and most of the day... So that's where I've been." She braced herself for the worst, fully expecting and feeling like she should deserve Siren's disappointment and hatred. She expected nothing less than being thrown out of their room and shoved out of Siren's life. She thought about all of the nights they had spent together, all the days and all of the time spent living side by side, and she couldn't help but be deeply disappointed in herself for ruining it. But worst of all, she thought about how she had treated Siren after she found her washed up on the beach and couldn't think of anything about how guilty she was over that now. "I'm so sorry, Siren. I turned myself into a hypocrite. I pushed you away and punished you for what you did and now I understand and I'm so, so sorry for how I acted. I let my body get the best of me and I couldn't stay loyal to you even when that's what I had wanted from you. I'm just... I'm just so sorry." |
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