how do you say

That new distance between them had widened since their last meeting, though Eligos wasn't surprised after the way he had treated her. Once he would have been pleased and relieved, but now the gulf troubled him. He didn't have so many he was close to that losing one, no matter how exasperating she had been at the start of their relationship, sat easily with him. Particularly with his current exile. But how to fix what he had done? "Aryn, I..." He cleared his throat awkwardly. "I wanted to... Apologize for the way I treated you, at the festival. You have always been good to me, and you did not deserve to be treated the way I acted towards you. I am sorry." His eyes studied her with concern, noting again the changes between them, and sighed. "You deserve better from a friend than I have given you."