The Last Time

He shouldn’t have found her here, it would have been better for both of them if this moment hadn’t happened.  Yet, Kotori imagined neither would forget this time.  Emotions were too clogged and a tangent from what could have been to what will be diverged strongly here.  She agreed to train one of his kids if it should happen and while he was glad it was a hollow sort of glad.  It was the type of thing he felt would be good later when they had grown used to the separation but right now it was a reminder of what they wouldn’t have.

Kotori nodded reluctantly as she spoke of not seeing him for a long time.  She apologized things weren’t different and he could only let out a huff as he once again felt reminded of how he had screwed up.  This was all his fault.  If he had thought to speak up on his plans sooner then she wouldn’t be leaving and there would be a future for the two of them.  He wouldn’t let something like this happen again.  No more putting off what could be done today until tomorrow, at least not where it was important matters such as future dreams.

“Me too.” The words subdued.  “It’s my fault after all.” It wasn’t just a generic stab at himself, it was letting her know Kotori didn’t blame her.  It wouldn’t be fair to separate with Iki thinking he blamed her.  His eyes glanced down to her paw on his eyes, the feeling of static suddenly there, then her shoulder touching against his followed by the kiss.  Kotori turned his own head to return the kiss, across her own muzzle with mournful eyes searching her own.

“Iki, I’m going to be starting my own pack.  I’ll be challenging against another and if I win I’ll have to form my own allies.  I’ll visit Elysium then and I will work on making sure we are under good terms.  So I’ll see you then.  I’ll see how you are doing with,” a moment of hesitation on what to say, “with your new life” That seemed easier to say than with your mate.

Not that Kotori had a lot of diplomatic knowledge but he had asked Venom to help give him pointers on being an alpha.  Whether it was her or dad, he would make sure to get a few pointers before jumping into things.  Kotori knew respect was needed of course but, what else?  He had no children to give away yet as bargaining chips.  How normal was that as a method?  Dad hadn’t ever done it as far as he knew. Kotori imagined he should move apart after the kiss, instead he tilted his head to press his forehead up against Ikigai's head.  They only had this for a short time right?  It was already painful, right?  It was painful but it also felt good.  He didn't want it to end just yet now that they were here.

"Kotori Fatalis"