there were azaleas where your face should be
thalia </3
09-05-2022, 10:00 AM
Struggling as she was to get through the thorns, she didn't hear the approach of the stranger. And that's what all it was - just another stranger. Everyone she passed lately was a dark, empty patch of memory. Occasionally she'd catch the glint of sunshine in someone's eyes and be stunned by recognition, but the guilt that followed was so overwhelming that she often avoided their gaze all together and simply moved on. When she tried to recall where she was going, what she was doing, who was this being that piloted her body... she came up empty. Thoughtless and aimless, like a small bit of dandelion fluff brought along by a breeze. Who knew where she was going? Did it even matter? And then the stranger was upon her, calling her name. She had held that little bit close enough, if only because it was repeated so often in the beginning - Hello, Theory? Theory, are you listening to me? Theo? A shiver wracked her body so thoroughly that she convulsed. Her toes curled into the dirt at the sound of this stranger's voice. Some residual shred of her begged her to turn, to look, but she planted her paws and kept staring listlessly ahead. If she turned around she'd have to confront this stranger, confront that she was maybe a little lost, confront that she'd forgotten most of the parts of her that made up her very soul. That she was just an empty body. Theory pulled back her lips in a cross between a grimace and a retch. A strangled noise came from her throat, as if she was going to vomit. She busily swallowed it back and instead of turning to address the stranger, the yawning dark pit inside of her, Theo stared straight ahead at the wall of thorns and sat down with a sudden thump. If this stranger knew her name, surely they knew other important things - she would not run from that - but try as she might, she just couldn't bring herself to turn and look. It was too much. |