Where Do Your Demons Hide?
10-17-2013, 05:24 PM
She had not expected the outrage Syrinx would lash out at her. She had tried to reason, amend for her sudden temper by speaking to him alone and even seeking guidance of training. But it seemed he had heard none of it. She almost commented on his ways of running the pack but held her tongue. She would glance down at the pups. Sure training them to be able to defend themselves was great. But at their age she would not push it past them to think they knew enough to disobey and follow Valhallan's warriors to the battle. Already they held that note that they thought they knew better. Doing as Chrysanthe asked by training them would be so much harder now with their age and disrespect already directed towards her. Already she felt like she had failed before she had the chance to start. If things couldnt get worse, Syrinx carried on with his anger. Sky blue orbs widened in shock. Omega! Never worthy of being an Eta? Her muzzle gaped open. She felt like she had been struck down into the ground, her muzzle buried in dirt. Pain gripped her heart as she stared at the male. For a moment she feared him, of him attacking her, but more importantly, what he might do to this pack. The black cloud she had rid of month ago crept back. She hung her head, tail dropping. She would never succeed in life, she would always fail. Perhaps she was cursed after all. She would never be able to find happiness with caring for pups. It would seem that that would be her fate. She had tried so hard to overcome her past, to move on. To learn what she could here in Valhalla. But it seemed it had never been enough, that she had not tried enough. Chrysanthe had been led to think she was capable of being the pup's den mother, had asked her to train them at the meeting. But perhaps she had been wrong? Her mind was just repeating Syrinx's words, not even realizing Cael was leading her away. She had just blindly followed. Her chest squeezed with the need to scream out but she swallowed it down. Her mate's worried voice was the only thing that made her look up at him. She felt so ashamed, she had let him down too."I..I..sorta went off on Syrinx. Training pups this young..its not good. They'll think they're just as good as the warriors and sneak into battle. I've seen it before. I've treated wounded pups and buried the dead. I dont want to see it again! Sure defensive learning is great but i dont think Syrinx should train them..Cael..i failed! Im not worthy of being an Eta, he's right! I've done nothing here, i've let everyone down." She choked out. Rear sank to the earth as shoulders hunched forwards and her eyes closed. Erani will be so disappointed in her. Speech Thought Companion Others |
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