Why does it hurt so much

She kept her eyes on Inc, seeing flashes of his thoughts through the lovely mutli-toned hue of his eyes. She gathered that she had managed to surprise him. She allowed herself a small, amused smile. Keeping him off kilter was a little fun, but that wasn't why she had placed the tea between them. It was a promise, and a gentle probe. She was putting forth the truth that she would work with him to make this… relationship work. That it was a two way street. They had made some pretty heavy promises to each other during the night. Now, in the light of day, with the complicated mechanics of life around them. Would it keep?

She thought it would. Especially with the way Incubus opened up to her. Telling her the truth of his heart, he was ready and willing to start a family with her. He was hers for keeps. But he was also comfortable to wait until she was ready. He had given her his truth, and so she would return it with her own. "I did not think I would want any more children. They own a special place in your heart, and their absence is a pain like no other. But I believe I will change my mind with you, Incubus. I want to change my mind with you. Just not today." She gave him a smile. Reaching over her tea, she brushed another kiss against his muzzle. Enjoying the simple pleasure of being able to be affectionate with him. She waited to ensure his agreement was full, and then drank her tea down in one gulp. She hadn't placed anything in it to sweeten the bitter and she swallowed a few more times until the taste was gone.

She moved the tea cup aside and crawled further forward, back into his arms. And on the soft bedding he had provided for them. "This is… nice. An unexpected turn in my life… but then, you like to turn my life upside down don't you?" She teased him.