Broken Sonata

Her vision began to blur with tears as she wrestled with the reality of her situation, trying and failing to even begin to think of a way to tell her mother that she would have to step aside and the years of preparation they had done were for nothing or how she would have to admit to Albion that she would have to be the one that couldn't uphold her end of their bargain. She couldn't bring herself to lift her gaze from her white-tipped toes even as Sara began to speak, insisting that he wasn't going to let her give up on being matriarch for him. She lightly shook her head, wanting to say that she must and insist that she would do anything for him, but before she could his paws appeared around hers and her feline paws flexed to squeeze around his, looking at their similar yet opposite paws as he continued on, reassuring her that she was going to be the best matriarch their family had ever seen, that she wasn't going to throw away her ambitions for him. But how could she be the matriarch while she was actively breaking their laws? How could she enforce something that she couldn't follow herself? Were these really her ambitions or were they the ones that were given to her? She wasn't sure she even knew the difference any more.

As the tears that had pooled in her eyes began to run down her cheeks, she felt Saracyn lean toward her and felt his tongue on her cheeks as he licked away those tears. She listened as he laid out what she could do. Tell Albion the truth, talking to their mother together, finding different interpretations and ways around their laws, bringing up the possibility of what might happen if a Matriarch does not have an heir. It was hard to find a path through this when she felt like she was having to grieve the only path through her life she had ever known, but Saracyn found a way to poke holes in all of her fears and doubts, showing her that there might possibly be a way to make this work. It wasn't ideal and it wasn't the example she had always wanted to make for their pack and family, but there was a way for her to be with her soul mate and still follow this destiny that had been laid out for her. She desperately wanted him to be right. She wanted to be able to love him and be his soul mate just as badly as she wanted to make their family proud and be the Matriarch that their mother had always planed for her to be. Seeing the path to having both of those things was just murky and difficult.

As if reading her thoughts, Saracyn's paw gently lifted her chin, bringing her obsidian gaze up to meet the blue of his. He questioned if this was what she really wanted, pointing out what she was already thinking with how much more difficult this path was going to be. She searched his gaze for a moment, their twin markings glowing and pulsing in time with one another, her paws squeezing his like he was the life line and tether she needed. While she still didn't know what the future was going to hold, she at least knew that she couldn't fathom that future without him in it and that fact told her what she had to do. She quietly nodded as a shaky sigh passed her lips. "I know its going to be hard, but... A hard life with you sounds better than a hollow one without you," she told him, her voice quiet and hoarse with emotion. There was still so much doubt that they could actually make this work, that she could still be the matriarch despite all of this, but at the very least she could look forward to spending her life with Saracyn and giving him everything that he deserved. He had been her most loyal supporter and advocate since the day they were born and loved her unconditionally through everything. He deserved for her to be able to give him that in return.

"Avacyn Mendacium"