CHANGE COMES LIKE THE TIDE

*Gossamir* · (This post was last modified: 08-17-2014, 12:46 PM by Gossamir.)

Roman was clearly in no better a mood than the sapphire-eyed girl. She barked out orders but Gossamir could barely pay attention, her focus still intent on her own inner turmoil. She fought with the decision she had to make. Roman was giving her a chance to leave and Gossamir intended to take it. After all? Roman had already betrayed her trust. A sarcastic smile tugged at her maw. Trust. Now that was something she never thought she'd get offended by. She'd lived much of her early life with nothing but deceit. However? the smile faded, however, she'd shown nothing but respect and loyalty to Roman. And even then the older femme still didn't trust her judgement. It was bitter pill to swallow. Gossamir stood but when she tried to speak the words would not pass her parted lips.

Gossamir's eyes squeezed shut and she looked sharply away as Ritsuka pledged his loyalty to the Queen. She wanted to be with him. She knew that now that there was a chance she might not see him again. It stung bitterly. Why had she not said anything about how she'd felt sooner? Back then it seemed like she'd have eternity to confess her feelings and now? ? Now what did they have but minutes?

And Qanik, Gossamir admired this woman in ways she couldn't express. Her sense of duty, her altruistic and brave personality. Things Gossamir knew she never could be. And in someways Qanik was very much like the mother Gossamir never had. The three of them had joined together, been a family from the beginning even when Tortuga fell and rebuilt around them. Ritsuka and Qanik had some how become cornerstones in the independent femmes world. So what to do? What was she to do?

Qanik spoke and Gossamir found her attention raptly held by the older femme's words. A slight twinge of jealous filled her breast at how Qanik was so easily able to speak the words and hurt that Gossamir felt. Her heart raced and she nodded at the points Qanik was making. The older fae turned to leave and then Ritsuka spoke and for a moment Gossamir feared he would reprimand the other but instead he took her side and moved to leave as well. They were both leaving too? She felt a rush of relief but also a pang of fear at how the others would react.

Gossamir stood. "Qanik said everything that needed to be said and I certainly can't say anything as eloquently as she can. But yes, I'm leaving too. I've been fighting with that decision for awhile. I'm sorry if you feel this is a betrayal but you betrayed me first. I gave you my mind, my body, my knowledge of poisons intricately and brutally learned?. and you deemed it.. me? worthless. I will burden you no longer? good luck." Final words spoke Gossamir to turned to leave.

Sharpening my words...

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