damn right

She was quiet for a moment, trying to smack down the thoughts that whirled through her head like bumblebees on fast-forward. They buzzed in annoying agitation, and finally she just gave a violent shake of her head and peered at Valen. "I know I don't give the impression that I..." That she what? Had feelings? That there was more to her than a laughing trickster? "Maybe we need to start at the beginning like... like normal people, and actually get to know each other," she said quietly. "I can't - and I won't, and I shouldn't - change who I am, and I don't think you should change to suit anyone either. But - I can change what I do and maybe... we can at least make it to friends?" Friends with benefits? Friends who had children together?

She stared at him ruefully, trying to drop the mask of a smile back over her. "I'd hoped we were friends but I'd never had one before so I guess I... got ahead of myself." Change the subject, idiot... "Do you remember when we met?" Her smile quirked into some greater semblance of a real smile. Ok she'd been hoping to change the subject to sex but the words that blurted out were at least more comfortable than the murky depths of... FEELINGS. "You were high as fuck."