Astrea breathed as the anger seemed to swirl about her and seem to dissipate into her. She breathed in her storm brother's scent, it was a mixture of family and ozone. She breathed in, her rage bleeding away, with only sadness left in its place. She had felt the need to go with Voltage, she had just told him that she wanted to go with him... Maybe if she would have gone? No, Volt said that he found them murdered not that he saw them murdered. It did not matter then, she could have done nothing for them... Astrea was so lost in the head that Arcus's comment made her jerk back.
"You hear the storm?" She tilted her head at him. "The storm does something other than call your name?" Astrea studied her brother's face, her own a blank mask as she tried to absorb what he just told her. The storm was able to tell him things? The stars has done nothing but call to her, saying nothing but her name. What if the Stars was able to tell her things? The things she would learn!
Astrea was so adsorbed in that one thought that she seemed to forgot about her anger and sadness at least for a small time, but as her brother continued on telling her something she believed from the start, she seemed to have felt it from them; a extreme sadness as the months advanced closer to spring. But being so young and the fact that she did not spend a lot of time at the dens.
But the story got darker, the shining knowledge that their parents did love them was clouded with "What do you mean we where not meant to be born?" She wished that the stars talked to her, said more than just her name. What did he mean about them not supposed to exist. She looked up then, her eyes tracing the swirling clouds, her anger and sadness almost forgotten, she still felt the hollowness of loss but at the moment she was over come with curiosity.
Then there it was the dreaded line, something that everyone keeps telling her but she was not so sure of. Her eyes snapped down to her brother. "Have you been talking to Voltage? Why does everyone call me special? We are all special, not just me." She huffed as she looked back up at the sky. "I remember them, not clearly but I remember that they looked at all of us with this mixture of sadness and love, I never thought they would willingly toss us away,I knew! I knew they wanted us but... But I did not know why they would chase us out." She looked down at her paws then, her pale eyes confused but yet filled with determined fire. "I want to find out why the universe did not approve of us, and how our parents even had us if they where not supposed to." She looked at her brother her eyes sharpening, she had no idea how she was going to get those answers but she was determined to.
"I think I will go on an adventure, I will find those answers." She tilted her head then, a hum lifting from her maw. "Do you want to come with me?" It was a spur of the moment thing, she did not talk to her storm brother often, but the storms talked to him, and frankly she enjoyed his sweet, albeit awkward, presence. If Astrea was honest with herself she needed a bit of time away from the family, the mixture of sadness and indifference was going to grate at her, and frankly she needed time away from Ten, she loved him, she needed time to figure out some things on her own.
She then looked at the discarded opal and then at her brother, "Would you hold onto that for me? I do not need its courage, I need to find my own." She would return to the family a change wolf, but hopefully for the better; better to help her loved ones. This was going to be more than a quest for answers, it was going to be a quest to find her true self, to grow and survive without the protection of her, sometimes overbearing, elder siblings. This was going to be a quest of self discovery, to find her own identity, for better or for worst.
Astrea looked to the sky then, her eyes spying a single star in the breakage in clouds, it blinked a few times, calling her name. She closed her eyes then and wished for the same thing she had always wished for.
Love, happiness, and acceptance; for herself and all her family.
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