Reach out and touch

*Amalia* · 08-12-2015, 12:05 AM

Her wife's distress was not lost on her. She knew that it upset Athena to see her upset, but it was hard. She was a very fragile soul, and situations could quickly turn to tears with her. Very quickly. Just as easily as she turned her head to let out a giggle, she seemed to be crying about one thing or another. But Athena was always her shoulder to cry on, her wife was always at her side. Plush fur was a comfort to her red face, buried so deeply within her neck that she felt like she was breathing Athena in. Her scent was the only thing that she could smell, practically tasting it on her tongue. But this was something that she could never imagine coming up, nor did she know that it had been on her lover's mind as well. Babies. That was all she wanted and craved right now, to feel them within her belly moving and growing. She wanted to feel what her wife did, to go through birth. It wasn't that she wasn't as close to her boys, but she would never be the woman that gave birth to them. That special connection was between them and her, and it was something that she felt was physically missing from her. Amalia had always wanted to be a mother, to have little ones to call her own. She didn't love her boys any less because of it, there was just something missing from her life...

Apparently the same thought had come to Athena, and she pulled back to study her face. Really? It wasn't just Epiphron who thought that way? She was right that it would be strange... even more of an awkward thing to bring up to her family. She could only imagine the look on Leo's face when they brought it up to him. That thought made her smile a bit, but it faded quickly. She watched with a broken expression as her ears pinned back and she looked away, bringing a whine out of Ama's mouth. After that she listened to the woman's words in silence, her head slowly lowering as she fought back even more tears. Sniffling, she nodded her head slowly. Ama could understand where she was coming from, but she didn't know. Athena didn't have a single clue, because she wasn't missing out. "But I want to be a mother too, you know..." she said in a whisper, ears pressed tightly against her skull. "I want to feel what it is like to have them grow in my belly, to go through what I watched you go through with the boys. I always felt like I have been lacking that... sense of connection because of it. You will always be the one that birthed them Athena, the one that gave them life. I feel like that is lacking in my life... a little part that I crave." The tiny woman could hardly raise her voice, a slight edge of fear in her voice. "I... I know that I sound selfish. And I understand that you don't want him in our lives again, but... you have more family don't you?" She paused again, covering her face with her front limbs. "Its noble of you to offer to do it again for us, but I can't help but feel jealous... Its not that I will say no unless I am able to birth them. I know that Leo is a good candidate... although it might be a rather interesting conversation at most. If there is no other way I will talk to him, because having babies again with you will be worth it. I can deal with this feeling, I have been able to push it down for this long." Amalia lifted her face, offering Athena a weak smile.

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