The borders that he strayed near... Something about them seemed both familiar and foreign. A memory tried to stir within his mind, faded blue orbs looking into the packlands as he stood there, a sad feeling welling up in his chest. He felt... As if he was forgetting something very important. Not just something... But many things. Other wolves maybe? A land he once visited? His brow would furrow, a whine leaving him.

These strange feelings... The feeling of forgetting and trying to remember in vain... Why did it keep happening? Something... Something wasn?t right. The male would start to shake his head back and forth, pawing at his head as if that would make the things he was trying so hard and desperately to remember come forth into his mind. Something... Wasn?t right... And for the first time since he became as he was now Kyda was realizing something was wrong with him.

It was a sort of recovery in a way, or a slight one, as the damaged male started to gain some of his normalcy back, though it was only for small periods of time... And when he was in an area that reminded him of his past. Of the wolves he once knew, of the lands he once lived in and saw on a day to day basis. A frustrated growl would leave the wolf as he threw himself upon the ground, speaking his frustrations aloud.

?Remember... Can?t I... Why...? To remember I want! Remember!? His paw would continue at his head, claws cutting into the skin and sending blood trickling down his face.

Uphill struggle, blood sweat and tears

Tyr's confidence - while not particularly strong - had steadied a bit since the earthquake, where he'd actually taken charge to get an injured female out of danger, and since meeting with Cormalin, who was training him to fight and treated him with far more decency than he deserved. He'd even taken it on himself to take a long walk and see if he could identify the herbs he vaguely knew from listening to the few healers from his childhood. He was disappointed to find that only the lavender was immediately recognizable to him in it's natural state this time of year, but he was glad enough to wander through the plains plucking up bits of it until he had a large, astringent-tasting but very pleasantly scented mouthful of stems. It hadn't even occurred to him that he'd put himself into a very dangerous situation, unable to depend on his nose since it was overwhelmed by the lavender and with only the faintest of hearing he had to depend entirely on his eyes to see danger.

Luckily there was no danger here this day, or at least no danger to himself. Still the sudden appearance of a wolf as Tyr pushed his way through the grass startled him, and he dropped the plants with a startled yelp and instinctive cringe. But mere moments later it registered what the wolf was doing - pawing at his head enough for there to be blood. Why, he didn't know, and he couldn't quite get anything out of the jumbled words the wolf was muttering either.

Orange-and-black patched pelt floofing in alarm, Tyr limped forward unthinkingly. "Hey now," he yipped softly, attempting to gently bat the other wolf's paw off his head. "Come on, don't do that. What's wrong?" It hadn't occurred to him quite yet that this wolf could be a danger to him, only that he was obviously in distress.



"Speech"

Nothing to gain, everything to fear

The yelp of another went unnoticed by the poor male, plagued by the memories that refused to stir to the surface of his brain. Whines would leave him, body shaking some. Why couldn?t he remember anything? What... What was wrong with him? He was working himself into a panic... Where was Koi? He couldn?t remember that in this state either... Not that scratching the hell out his head was helping much.

As he felt the paw of another bat at his own Kyda let out a surprised yelp, rolling away from Tyr onto his side with alarm. Among his yelling he hadn?t heard any approach, and he looked endlessly startled. Almost horrified. Slowly, when he saw this small male wasn?t coming at him, he would relax his body, ears lifting just slightly.

?That was what...?? The wolf had tried to speak to him before... But his approached had scared him. That was something else... Kyda didn?t know what it was... But he didn?t like when wolves got so close before he noticed them. Another underlying memory perhaps? He would whine, ears still lowered.

?Sorry am I... I...? Kyda?s brow furrowed, and the male looked back to the mixed eyes of the male in front of him. ?Memories like I feel there are... Come however no memories. Past my maybe trying to is from me hide.?

{{Ooc:: As Keno just realizes people might have an issue reading what the hell Kyda is saying. xD Translations for each sentence will now be below each of his posts.

Original:: ?That was what...??
What Kyda is actually saying:: ?What was that??

Original:: ?Sorry am I... I...?
What Kyda is actually saying:: ?I am sorry... I...?

Original:: ?Memories like I feel there are... Come however no memories. Past my maybe trying to is from me hide.?
What Kyda is actually saying:: ?I feel like there are memories... However no memories come. Maybe my past is trying to hide from me.?}}

Uphill struggle, blood sweat and tears

The gray-toned wolf's startled reaction scared Tyr as much as it did him, sending the calico-coated wolf cringing back in alarm before he could stop himself. Intellectually, he could see that this wolf was afraid, not aggressive, but deep-seated instincts were hard to convince of that. He took a deep breath, trying to settle his rapid heart, and the aroma of lavender still on clinging to his muzzle reminded him of the plants he had collected, and in the process reminded him of what he was trying to become - a healer - and the duties that came with it.

"Uhh, listen, why don't you try breathing the scent of these. They should help you calm down and relax so we can talk, ok? Maybe if you don't force it and you just relax, the memories will come back." The gray wolf's manner of speech was strange... maybe he didn't speak the common tongue natively? But it was enough for Tyr to understand, more or less, that the male was having trouble remembering his past... which to Tyr's mind sounded like paradise, but maybe there was something bad about keeping memories repressed like that. Something dangerous. He settled himself down cautiously, pulling the herbs toward the male, wondering how Erani would go about helping this wolf. "I'm Tyr. What's your name?"



"Speech"

Nothing to gain, everything to fear

The other had cringed back a well, as if he thought that Kyda would hurt him. It had confused the gray male some, though he didn?t speak too much on it. The calico coated male would set some herbs in front of him, saying that he should try breathing in their scent, that they might help him calm down and relax, and that they could talk. Maybe if he didn?t force it the memories might come back... He wasn?t sure of it, and he would give a soft whine, ears flicking back to reveal his uncertainty before lowering his nose closer to the lavender Tyr had gathered.



He would breathe in and out, slower breaths, deep ones. The calico would introduce himself as Tyr before asking for his own name, and Kyda would look back up, speaking softly. ?Kyda... Ethne Kyda.? The male would settle down upon the ground, still mindful of how he laid with his back end. Treated or not, the area where he once had his manhood was sensitive and bumping it against the ground would hurt quite a bit. He was laying more on his side, legs stretched out as he sighed, looking down at the herbs.



?Trouble time may a for long had may have I this think I, realizing but just now it.? Kyda would set his head on his legs, a troubled look in his eyes. There was something truly strange with it all... He would glance at Tyr, tilting his head to the side. ?...Possible it is false have memories to?? Could it be what he thought he knew was actually not true...? That they were false and his real memories might have been suppressed?




{{Kyda Translations!!:




Original:: ?Trouble time may a for long had may have I this think I, realizing but just now it.?

What Kyda Means To Say:: ?I think I may have had this trouble for a long time, but just realizing it now.




Original:: ?...Possible it is false have memories to??

What Kyda Means To Say:: ?...Is it possible to have false memories??}}



"Speech"

'thoughts'