Chasing Cars
02-28-2016, 03:15 AM
It was hot today. Humid even, and the woman was in a weird mood today. When she left her den earlier, she caught sight of her...son, heading towards her. And without so much as a word, Ashelia found herself quickly turning away and loped off into the trees. Her throat grew tight...would she ever feel anything for the boy? It wasn't his fault, but still...he was a reminder. A painful one at that. She couldn't take care of him, she wasn't ready. And yet...when she looked back and saw him staring after her, she couldn't help but feel her heart grow heavy. She felt bad...but she couldn't find it in herself to feel anything for him.
She remembered the day when he was born...the Healer and her friend Ashmedai had told her she would be a great mom! But she was everything but that...she hadn't seen either of them since. What would ash think of her? "He was wrong..." She muttered. Tears threatened to choke her as she stopped in the shade of a gnarled tree. She was knowingly abandoning the child...and she knew in her heart of hearts, her parents would be ashamed of her for doing so. |