Kaveh Kyra

Where could she be? the earthy hued brute thought as he padded down the shore of the huge river that cut through the land. He had been searching high and low for his sister. He thought he had caught her scent once, but quickly lost the trail. He was losing hope, starting to think that he would ever set his seafoam gaze on his smaller sibling again. He sighed and looked out over the moving water, slowly moving along its shore. The sun was high above him, making the liquid sparkle in the light. He paused, turning to face the river. He peered down, seeing his wavering appearance looking back up at him. His fur was simple, a solid, deep brown covering his entire body with few variations in hue. His eyes were a bright, pale sea green, a match to his sister's. The brute slowly lowered to his haunches, sitting resolutely on the bank of the wide river. His ears laid back against his skull and a soft whine echoed in his chest. What could he do now? His goal had been to reunite with his sister after they had been separated in that awful winter storm, but that was rapidly seeming out of reach. He supposed maybe he could join a pack, build a new life for himself... but the weight of his failure to protect his family crushed him. They were all he cared about and now they were gone. His eyes slid closed and his head dipped dejectedly toward the water, his bushy tail curling over his paws. The heavy burden of his loss pressed on his shoulders, making it hard for him to breathe. He took a shuddering breath, blocking out the world around him. What could he do when all was lost? Thought Speech Others

The dame had made her way to the Rio Grande. She had been a bit confused of what she could call home anymore...bus as long as she still had her family right? With a sigh she shook her head as bi-colored eyes settled on the river. Her children would be yearlings come Summer. At the thought of that she realized she shouldn't be out here. Not after what had happened last year. A shiver ran down her spine as she remembered the horrid events. The Dane's heat snapped her out of her thoughts. It was kind of annoying but she was able to ignore it like her sister Maka was able to as well. Perhaps she should go back and stay with her mother and children until Summer. But that would make her a coward wouldn't it...what ha she even become now? Keki felt like she had been a failure as a mother. Her own children even carried a burden. They knew they were different from the other pups. They knew they didn't have a father to stick around and raise them like the others. Was that the reason to Keki's failures? She didn't have help? But then again why should she have help...why should she need it? Turning away from her reflection in the water the dame didn't want to look at herself.

If only she hadn't left the territory that night...she sought adventure but got something completely different. Memories of that night plagued her mind as she had been violated. Memories of seclusion herself from her family only to hide her pregnancy. She remembered feeling ashamed...feeling like a slut. But the thing was...she wasn't. Keki knew she was smart, serious, and she didn't expect to wander out into the woods and be raped. And what had that done to her? How had it affected her life? She had worked constantly intake care of the three children or products of that night. The three little darlings that came out of something bad. Yet she remembered being pinned down against her own will.

And now...now? She already had children and had ruined her life by straying from the territory that night. No man would love a dame who already has children. None of her children would ever have a father. And she hated herself for that. Knowing that neither of her pups deserved this. They deserved more, they deserved what everyone else had. Ben looking at her son who was the odd one out of the three made a small shiver run up her spine every time. He looked so much like his father, a spitting image almost. But his father was the man who had raped her. His father was the man who had made her feel violated! His father was the man who had deprived her children of a proper upbringing. A sigh escaped her maw as the dame sat by the river. It was over, everything was over. Once her three sons turned of she they would probably leave her. And what would she be left with? That is what scared Keki the most.....because she didn't know....

The dame shuddered before standing up and turning away. But before she took those few steps to leave her bi-colored eyes spotted a figure by the river. It looked like another wolf. The dame quietly and cautiously walked towards the wolf. As she came closer she realized it was a brute, hunching over the water. As she came closer she saw that his eyes were closed. Yet hesitantly taking a few steps back she resisted the urge to flee. Of course he would be able to smell her heat more clearly now. Her heart beat fast in her chest as she hoped he wouldn't be like the horrid brute on that horrid night. Maybe he would be friendly...but by the looks of it it looked like he needed a friend as well.

"Exscuse me....? Are you alright sir?" she said as she kept her distance in case she had to run.

Kaveh Kyra

Of course Kaveh had smelled the fea approaching him. Her heat was hard to miss for the young brute, but he had ignored it, hoping the fea was just passing through and would leave him be. That was clearly not the case, however when he heard her voice, asking if he was alright. His eyes snapped open from surprise as he looked over at her, quickly straightening up from the hunched over position he had been in, his ears perking up to face her. He gave her a nod, forcing a smile onto his muzzle. "Yes, yes, I'm fine. I just... have a lot on my mind is all." He pushed away his depressing thoughts, not wanting to worry the stranger with his problems. They were his burdens and he had no right to dump them on her. It had been a long time since he had been with any company, so he welcomed the chance to speak with a friendly wolf. It helped take his mind off of his sister for a few moments at the very least. He had been so focused on looking for her that he had spared little time for socializing and it had only ended up bringing him down into this awful depression. He was almost grateful for the fea coming across him, checking on him. He knew he must have been quite the sight, hunched over like he was. His pale, sea-foam eyes took in her form, her pale ivory fur marked with gray and black and her two-toned blue eyes. She was lovely without a doubt. Her scent was slightly distracting, but he was a gentleman. He refused to comment on it. He stood, turning to face her, and dipping his head to the fea respectfully. "My name is Kaveh. I apologize for you finding me like this. I've just had a rough time lately." Thought Speech Others Companion

The dame stood practically on her toes, ready to flee the scene if need be. Keki wondered why this man looked so sad. But as soon as he was hunched over was there a straight spine and a smile on his maw. The dame returned the smile before cautiously taking a step forward.

Her gray lined ears perked up as she listened to him say he was fine and had a lot on his mind. Keki nodded, she could relate. Then she delved into her own thoughts. No doubt she was full of worry for every little thing going on with her family while she was here. But then again nothing went wrong when she was gone; the dame was just one to worry. But that was good right? Perhaps a but but not too much. With a small shake of her head she ceased those thoughts before turning her bi-colored gaze and attention back to the brute before her. Feeling abut more comfortable she realized this was a noble man or seemed like it so far. So she cautiously yet hesitantly took a few steps forward and stood there for a moment. Her pelt felt hot as she stood there. Keki was still a bit wary and admittedly scared. Yet the femme continued and sat down on her own haunches beside the brute.

Next he let more words fall from his maw. He said his name and an apology. Kaveh, and he apologized for having her catch him how he was. Then did Kaveh admit he had had a tough time lately. With a sympathetic nod Keki understood.

"Oh, it's no trouble at all....I can relate." she said before turning to look at him and offer a sympathetic smile. It's nice to meet you Kaveh; my name is Keki, Keki Menapache.

"Even so, our reasons are probably completely different. Yet I see you closed the curtain over your emotions. Perhaps it would be better to talk about it? If you would like. And then I can talk about mine as well then. I honestly think it helps...but if not then how about a chat or a swim?" she said in her usual gentle and calm voice.

Keki knew she had no business wondering what made Kaveh so down. Perhaps if he even opened up a bit I would help him feel a bit better. Even let the stress roll off his shoulders a bit. With a small sigh she pushed her own troubles away. Denying herself to even think about them at the moment. Then as she sat there the dame squirmed for a met before settling down once more. Maybe her sister was slightly better at ignoring her heat. Keki wished for Summer and at the same time didn't. She didn't want her sons to grow up and leave her. Yet then again what kind of mother would she be if she didn't want them to thrive and leave the nest. Selfish, that's what kind of mother she would be. With a small sigh the femme say quietly awaiting an answer or reply from Kaveh.

OOC:ignore phone errors

Kaveh Kyra

Kaveh watched as the woman that had introduced herself as Kiki approached him cautiously. She hid it fairly well, but he could tell that she was nervous, perhaps even scared. He had to wonder what could have made her so uneasy around him. Was it something he did? Or maybe it was because he was a brute? He wanted to ask, but he didn't know if that was a sensitive subject for her or not and didn't want to run off the only company he had been with in days. His ears flicked toward her as he listened to her kind words, a small, genuine smile crossing his muzzle. She seemed very sweet and appeared to sincerely care about what was bothering him. "I'm... I'm not very good at sharing my problems. he replied, a soft, almost nervous chuckle rumbling in his throat. He looked down at the water again, his reflection looking back at him. "I guess maybe it would be good to talk about it... As long as you really don't mind listening. You see... A while back my mother and sister and I were traveling through a blizzard. We were on the run, I guess. There was a brute that was after my mother and we were constantly on the run from him. My mother got hurt one day, I'm not sure what hurt her, she wouldn't say, but she became very weak. That was right before we had to move again, through this blizzard. I got separated from them in the snow. I've been searching for my sister ever since. I doubt my mother is still alive and I don't even know if my sister made it... But I'm searching for her. Just in case." His ears folded back against his head and he sighed, some of that weight creeping back onto his shoulders as he thought about it. "I just hope she's okay, wherever she is... It was my job to take care of them. We didn't have a father so it was my job... and I failed." He closed his eyes, struggling against the creeping depression. He shook his head, trying to clear it as he took a deep breath and let it out in a sigh. His sea-foam gaze looked up to her and a sad smile met his lips. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to unload like that... When it rains it pours I guess. He watched as she shifted uncomfortably, the movement reminding him of her heat once again. The scent met his nose, even stronger now that she was closer to him. He quickly turned his attention back to the river, his ears flicking back from embarrassment. It was one of the very few times he had ever been around a woman when she was in heat and he wasn't sure how to behave around her. He didn't really want to say anything, but the scent was so distracting. He cleared his throat, quickly turning to turn the attention away from it. "So, what about you? What's been on your mind? Thought Speech Others Companion

Keki sat quietly as she waited for Kaveh to reply; and soon enough he did. She didn't want to force him or pressure him; the dame just wanted to help. He then said he wasn't very good at sharing problems. The femme noticed the nervous chuckle he emitted before his light blue gaze, almost like seafoam looked back down at the water. And before she knew it he was sharing it. Keki was drawn into the story of how Kaveh and his mother and sister were traveling through a blizzard. And then she learned that there was a brute after his mother. How strange, how frightening! With a nod she listened with a sympathetic look on her face. Next the dame listened to Kaveh say his mother got hurt before he got separated from them. That sort of reminded Keki of when she left her own sister Maka. A small shiver ran down her spine as she thought of that as well. Keki had felt guilty for that and even now. The brute continued and said he had been searching for his mother and sister and still is. Keki watched his ears fold back. The femme ran her tail across his back to provide even a smidge of comfort.

Kaveh spoke again soon after. He said it was his job to take care of them. Next he said they didn't have a father so it was his job. And after that saying he failed. No-colored eyes widened at the mention of that. Was this how her own children would end up? Was this their future? Kaveh sighed before looking up at her with a smile. Keki returned the small smile before perking up her light gray lines ears some more in case he had anything else to say. The man apologized for unloading everything on her. The female shook her head with a smile. He didn't unload too much on her, everything was completely ok.

Keki then looked back up at him as he asked her about what was on her own mind. With a small shrug Keki answered.

"Well...it's just a whole mess I myself made. And I'm sorry to hear about your family. If Inser them I'll let you know, ok?" she said

The dame then took a breath before she spoke.

"I guess I made this mess. If I hadn't left my sister seeking a pack when we were just pups I wouldn't be here. Yet then again I'm happy here at the same time. I was young and stupid...so I put my dreams before my family. Next thing I knew it a wolf found me on the border of Glaciem, she's my adoptive mother now, and my sister's. My sister Maka found me too. I was happy and instill am but not in the same way. Last Spring I wandered out f the territory, and I knew I shouldn't have. I just seeked adventure. And next thing I know....I was raped. And now I have three lovely children, my sons. But I found that taking care of them myself and hiding them from the truth is hard. And I feel guilty still. They don't deserve a life from the other pups. They deserved a father and he's either still out there or dead. I know they feel bad for me; how they look at me. It makes me want to cry when my son Tiberious says he'll protect me. I know he will...but. They shouldn't feel that way, like its their fault, it's mine. And I'm sorry to unload on you as well. But I feel as if my life is over after they're grown. No man would ever want a dame who already has children. And then I look at my own children as they grow. They're going to leave me too one day, And I'm scared. That's the worst part...because I'm scared Kaveh." she said before looking down at her paws.

Keki didn't want to look back up at him. She don't want tonsee his reaction. Would it be sympathetic, disgust? Bi-colored eyes never left her paws, she was too ashamed.

"I'm sorry Kaveh." she said out of spite.

The dame sat there quietly after and continued to stare at her paws....and she would stay like that for the stars know how long.

Kaveh Kyra

Kaveh took comfort in the soft touch of her tail on his back. It was good to have someone there with him, to know someone was listening. It had always been hard for him to tell other wolves his problems because he had always felt like they were his burdens to bear, but Kiki was such a wonderful listener than he felt comfort instead of shame from telling her. He nodded with a grateful smile at her offer and then waited patiently for her to tell her story. The earthy brute listened attentively, his gaze never wavering from her form. A soft smile touched his muzzle while he was listening to her tell about how their adoptive mother found them, but that smile quickly got swept away as she continued. His expression shifted to rage at the news that she had been raped, immediately wanting to find the bastard and rip him limb from limb. Her words pulled him away from his brief murderous thoughts as she continued on about her sons, concern crossing his gaze. He knew how it felt to be the pup in this situation, wanting to protect his mother from harm, wanting to be the man of the family. It was interesting, hearing it from the mother's point of view. Is that how his own mother had felt? That he shouldn't have to take care of her? What caught his attention the most and blew him away was the fact that she thought no brute would want her since she already has children. He wanted to deny that as soon as she said it, but he held his tongue so she could finish, ending her story with an apology much like he had. He wanted her to look at him, to lift those lovely two-toned blue eyes up to his again, but they stayed firmly on her paws. His gaze was one of concern, the rage he felt toward the brute that had raped her still hiding just behind it. "This isn't your fault, Kiki," He told her firmly, his voice gentle yet strong enough to show that there was no questioning it. He gently lifted her muzzle with his paw so that his eyes could see hers again, his expression serious, but calm. As he spoke his paw lowered to the ground again. "The only one to blame here is the brute that did this to you. As for your son wanting to protect you, they mean well. Speaking from experience, they're just trying to step up and do what is right. It just shows how much they love you that they're willing to do that. And brutes not wanting you because of you already having children... That's just not true. If whoever it is can't love you because of your sons, then they clearly don't really love you. And yes, your sons will leave one day, but kids always have a way of finding their way back to at least visit from time to time." He smiled gently, his tail gently brushing her back much like hers had done to him. "It's alright to be scared. Change is frightening. But it's something that has to happen sometimes. She was such a sweet fea, he just couldn't imagine what would bring some lowlife to want to hurt her like that. In the end though, it sounded like she had raised three lovely sons so it turned out alright. His smile touched his pale green eyes as he looked at her kindly. He wanted to help her feel better, but he wasn't sure how to do that. He hoped at the very least his words had put some of her fears to rest. Thought Speech Others

Pour out her thoughts to this stranger did the dame do. And yet, he wasn't a stranger anymore wasn't he? This brute was Kaveh, her new friend. And here she was, staring at her paws. It was only a moment that had gone by until she felt a paw under her chin and it began to lift up her muzzle and face to face Kaveh. In a firm tone with a concerned look in his eyes he told her it wasn't her fault. It sounded like he meant it but still....it partially was right? She was the one who had wandered put of the territory. It was she who had made that choice to go out and explore. Young and reckless....but then she was still young...but less reckless. Keki knew she hadn't changed much....except her lack of fun. Even her own sister hadn't been much fun lately. What was wrong here? There is something out of place,and the dame had a feeling it's her. She knew she has been caught up with her children lately. But what about paying attention to her sister as well? The femme wanted to look up towards the sky and scream. All this time she forgot about Maka as well. That's why she looked so hesitant when they all left Glaciem! Gray lines ears pulled back as she even thought about it.

Bi-colored eyes of blues averted their gaze back to Kaveh, back to Earth. She listened to him as he told her it was the brute who raped her who was at fault. And he said kind things about her sons, and how he has had experience as well. He continued on those kind words about her sons and how much they much love her. She bit her lip as she thought about them. Keki didn't even know if they were headed in the right direction. Tiberious had always been like her, while Pericles relates to his Aunt Maka. And then Kairos....? The dame figured he'd find his path. Yet the dame feared he was following the same as his father's. No, she raised three fine young men! And the dame wouldn't take it any other way. All three of them are perfect! Her eyes then looked a way for a moment. Keki couldn't coddle her children forever. She even remembered the day they were born. All three the same yet different colors. The femme beamed with pride of being a new mother but then regret. She hated bringing children into this cruel world. They were all pieces of the game. And now she regretted it no more. Keki promised herself and them in their first moments together that she would love them forever and no matter what. Even a small smile cracked at the edge of her lips at the thought. They loved her....and she loved them. Then came Kaveh talking about how absurd it would be for a man not to love a dame with children. He said if that's the case then they don't really love you at all. A brow raised as Keki thought about it. Kaveh was.....right!

She nodded in agreement as he ran his tail over her back as she did so to him before. Taking a deep breath Keki admittedly felt a bit better.

Lastly the brute said it was alright to be scared and stuff about change. Maybe it was the change. How she had mainly cause most of it in her life. Leaving her sister during pup hood, finding her own pack. Acquiring a new family. Then came the bad change, that horrid night, the loss of her Uncle's pack. Heck, the female didn't even know where she lived anymore. Maybe the dame was a wandered....she would have to find somewhere to live. But the dame didn't want to leave her family, she wanted to stick together with them....no matter what.

Averting her gaze directly at Kaveh she spoke in reply.

"Thank you for your kind words....hey are much appreciated....very." she added.

"Yet I still somewhat blame myself. Again it was I who made that one choice to wander out of the boundaries. Yet I would never expect to be....raped... But you know what, you're right Kaveh. And I feel a but better now....thank you." she said with a small smile

Keki then leaned forward to lightly touch her nose to the side of the man's cheek. She gave a touch of thanks and the dame was quite content now. Looking into the male's light green eyes did she await another reply.

Kaveh Kyra

Kaveh waited for a response from the gray-marked fea, his ears perking up to catch her voice when she finally spoke. He was happy to hear that she felt better thanks to his words. He knew it would take such a long time for her to completely recover, but if he could push her in the right direction then he was more than happy to do so. He blinked with surprise as Keki pressed her nose to his cheek, bringing a smile to his muzzle. She was a very kind and sweet fea and he hoped that one day someone would come along and be able to see that and love her for it. "If you or your pups ever need anything, you let me know. I don't care what it is, whether its big or small, I'll be there for you, okay? There's no reason for you to be in this situation alone. You're a strong wolf, I can tell, but even the strongest wolves need help sometimes." He stood and pressed his nose to her cheek in return, his tail wagging behind him happily. "I'm really glad I met you, Miss Keki. I feel much better now and I hope you do. But I should get going. I have a lot more ground to cover before it gets dark. I hope I get to see you again soon." With one last smile he trotted off, glancing back over his Keki before turning his seafoam-hued gaze back to his path. He was more determined to find Elysia than ever thanks to Keki and vowed to bring Ely to meet the lovely fea when he finally found her. -exit Kaveh- Thought Speech Others Companion