The wind carried his fur with it, as he shed out more fur from the winter months. Riv had his paws crossed, after a run across the borders he was relaxing. His tail curled around his thighs as he laid his head down. He had been thinking a little too much lately, after all maybe he was starting to doubt himself. The lack of action put him on edge, and goals for himself were a lack there of. The man had a thought cross his head. He hadn't talked with Zeph's siblings just yet... Ren was another story it was her sisters he meant. Standing he sent a call out for Kaitlyn. He hadn't talked to her yet since Zephyra accepted her into the pack. It was due time he spoke to her. After all he had already screwed up with Ren and he hoped none of them hated him for that. He took in a deep breath and composed himself, a calm alpha was a better alpha. "Talk"

The meeting had not been a good one, and it was only thanks to her siblings that Kaitlyn had calmed down to her regular self. She was still scared, scared of feeling that anger again. Kait was terrified of the dark thoughts, of the vivid imagery of her fangs tearing into Rivaxorus she saw that day. She didn’t want to hurt anyone. She wanted to help them feel better. To heal. Since then she had spent even more time in her den, isolating. She didn’t know what to do about that voice in her head... Or what she’d do if it eventually won over. Kait heard the call of her alpha but hesitated. She half expected the voice to come again, to urge her to hurt, but it didn’t. Once Kaitlyn felt certain that it wasn’t going to rise up she left the den. The chestnut girl moved lightly on her paws, searching for the source of the call. When she finally found him Kait approached with lowered ears and tail, giving a soft whine. They hadn’t officially met before and surely she hadn’t given the best impression by threatening him at the meeting. She fought for words, adverting her gaze as she came to a stop. “I’m sorry...” The words were so quiet that Riv might have missed them all together. She honestly just wanted to curl up in a ball and hide. ""

He would be lying if he said he wasn't nervous. Rivaxorus was not angry with the sisters at all. Not when he understood how they felt. He would have done the same if it had come down to Jackson or Razor. Even Holly and Epinone. Oh those feelings returning made his head hurt. He tried to bury those things deep down inside of him. As the alpha turned to see the wolf approaching in a more than submissive stance - the words leaving her lips were a whisper. Luckily he had lived with a brother who spoke like that almost all the time. What she said though, made his ears pin back he crouched lower. She had no reason to apologize. "No no Kaitlyn there isn't anything to apologize for." he spoke softly as both of his eyes looked at the wolf. He knew nothing of her, but maybe he should. "I actually.... wanted to apologize. I messed up and it hurt all of you. All I want is for all of you to be safe. Even if I don't know you well - maybe you'll let me get to know you?" he let a small smile appear on his face. "I wanted to know... what you want to do." "Talk"

Kaitlyn shuddered. There was something to apologize for. He didn’t know her dark thoughts, how she had wanted to hurt him... How she had wanted, so desperately wanted to tear him apart for even thinking of breaking her family apart. No, not what she wanted, Kait told herself. What that voice wanted her to do. That voice that was so dark... But he was apologizing. Riv was apologizing and that should make things better, right? Kait shifted on her paws,giving a soft whine. “I don’t think you understand...” Kait closed her green eyes, trying to gather her thoughts, to express her concerns to the alpha of Myriad. “That day... I wanted to hurt you so much... But... I don’t really want to hurt anyone... I want to save lives... To mend those who are hurt...” Kait opened her eyes again. “I’m afraid... Afraid of myself. I’m not well... I told Zeph... She knows...” Kait shifted on her paws again. “I hear this voice, Riv... And she wants me to hurt others... She’s so bitter and hateful and I’m scared of her.” Kait’s voice was quiet. “I don’t want to hurt any of you... But she does... And... What if she’s part of me? What if it’s not just in my head?” ""

Rivaxorus would listen to the girl carefully. It was clear that the alpha was giving her full attention. When he heard it, his heart dropped silently. She heard a voice? Fear engulfed him like a fire, not because of her. He was concerned, and if she was hurting enough - worried enough to trust him and tell him then he wouldn't let that go to waste. She asked a few things - and he wasn't sure how to answer her. He wanted badly to just tell her that everything was going to be okay. "Have you had any black outs? Or ignored her?" he asked quietly as he still remained on her level. His body lowered as he furrowed his brows in concern for the girl. "You see.... my mother had mental illness as well. If I can help you, in any way I will." Rivaxorus let his tail swish from side to side. "It's going to be okay even if she is you, I don't hate you Kait." He whimpered. "Talk"