where the lights won't find you
02-28-2017, 08:11 PM
(This post was last modified: 04-01-2017, 03:12 PM by Lark.)
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02-28-2017, 09:13 PM
"Godetevi la vostra formazione?"
Sparrow had been zoned out. She couldn't say she felt better, but she felt less angry. She was still brooding on it, so Lark's voice came as a surprise. The small girl jumped slightly. She didn't really make it a point to talk to anyone in the pack, so most times when she heard someone, she didn't pay much attention. Lark's approach and words caught her off guard.
She grimaced briefly, glad her back was to him. Now wasn't the time for chewing out her brother, no matter what kind of idiot he was playing by whoring around with an in-heat female.
Sparrow felt in her gut that there'd be pups later. Whether they'd be Lark's or not, she didn't know, but she wasn't keen on being around any of Lillianna's spawn, much less if they shared her genetics.
Sparrow's stomach twisted. She swallowed hard. As she turned to Lark, she debated back and forth between English and Italian for some time. She didn't know what to say in either language to be honest, so she was glad he asked a direct question.
"La formazione è andato bene. Se non ero così piccolo, sarei un combattente for sure."
Without realizing it at first, she threw in English at the end. When she did realize, she snorted, "È da un po, eh?"
She didn't have much else to say. She didn't really know what to say. Sparrow tried to separate her intrusive thoughts from the present conversation. Her mouth felt dry. She wanted to start coughing. Was she panicking at speaking to her own brother?
"Che ne dici di tuo?" she asked roughly while her mind scrambled to gain its composure. She smiled lopsidedly, trying to hide her awkwardness behind some casual, lose smile she had picked up from someone a long time ago.
"Please don't mention her," Sparrow mentally begged.
Sparrow had been zoned out. She couldn't say she felt better, but she felt less angry. She was still brooding on it, so Lark's voice came as a surprise. The small girl jumped slightly. She didn't really make it a point to talk to anyone in the pack, so most times when she heard someone, she didn't pay much attention. Lark's approach and words caught her off guard.
She grimaced briefly, glad her back was to him. Now wasn't the time for chewing out her brother, no matter what kind of idiot he was playing by whoring around with an in-heat female.
Sparrow felt in her gut that there'd be pups later. Whether they'd be Lark's or not, she didn't know, but she wasn't keen on being around any of Lillianna's spawn, much less if they shared her genetics.
Sparrow's stomach twisted. She swallowed hard. As she turned to Lark, she debated back and forth between English and Italian for some time. She didn't know what to say in either language to be honest, so she was glad he asked a direct question.
"La formazione è andato bene. Se non ero così piccolo, sarei un combattente for sure."
Without realizing it at first, she threw in English at the end. When she did realize, she snorted, "È da un po, eh?"
She didn't have much else to say. She didn't really know what to say. Sparrow tried to separate her intrusive thoughts from the present conversation. Her mouth felt dry. She wanted to start coughing. Was she panicking at speaking to her own brother?
"Che ne dici di tuo?" she asked roughly while her mind scrambled to gain its composure. She smiled lopsidedly, trying to hide her awkwardness behind some casual, lose smile she had picked up from someone a long time ago.
"Please don't mention her," Sparrow mentally begged.
03-01-2017, 05:21 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-01-2017, 05:22 PM by Lark.)
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03-04-2017, 12:29 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-04-2017, 12:31 AM by Sparrow I.)
Lark offered her some words of encouragement, noting how she should focus on her strengths. Sparrow grimaced slightly. What was she even good at? After a second, she threw on a grin, "I'm trying to be realistic, not get killed. It would be cool to be a fearless warrior, huh?" Sparrow briefly fantasized how a confrontation with Lillianna would go if she were a warrior. She liked the outcome, but decided not to indulge herself too much.
Lark was dead on about time passing without realizing it.
"I don't even really feel like an adult. It's funny, I imagined I'd have a family by now, and old friends with their own families, but neither happened. I- uh- don't really have any friends, I don't think, not to mention old friends. Now I'm almost an old lady. I could have almost grandchildren, realistically. Isn't that crazy?"
Sparrow laughed a little to herself, though her heart clenched in her chest. For a moment she wondered if she'd ever have a family, or if she'd die alone.
Next topic.
Lark mentioned being late to the meeting.
Wait, not that topic.
Sparrow tried not to let herself react, and as a result became stiff. Not here. Not now. She didn't want to talk about this right now. She wanted to enjoy her brother's company. She didn't want to fight. She would, one day, she knew she'd have to probably, but not now. How could she avoid it?
Humor, yes, humor!
Sparrow chuckled. It was forced.
"Dad's face was a little scary. It didn't make it better when-" Sparrow paused at her name. She didn't want to say it. The girl swallowed, opened her maw to speak, but nothing came out. She closed it and tried again. She laughed again, nervously this time.
"Needless to say, with that announcement, I think the whole pack got a pretty clear idea of what you two were doing."
Her words started with a smile, but ended flatly. She could feel her face and ears heat up though she wasn't sure if it was out of embarrassment or anger. She felt like she should warn her brother to be careful, but she was treading on thin ice already.
Sparrow plopped her fluffy tail on the ground several times, "I couldn't look up at any of the other pack mates to catch their expressions, though."
She didn't mention that it was because she was trying to stare into her father's soul, silently commanding him to do something- anything- or that she was forcing herself to stay planted to the ground in fear or confronting the woman herself right then and there.
Sparrow looked into the distance, a plastic smile plastered to her face as she tried to shrink away from her feelings and just try to be a normal sibling to a wolf who had a totally normal and not manipulative (and possibly murderous) girlfriend. Wait. Were they together like that or was it casual? Sparrow felt herself suck in a breath as minty eyes widened.
She wasn't sure which possibility was worse.
She didn't want to talk about this anymore.
Change the subject.
Think of anything.
Her mind was blank.
Lark was dead on about time passing without realizing it.
"I don't even really feel like an adult. It's funny, I imagined I'd have a family by now, and old friends with their own families, but neither happened. I- uh- don't really have any friends, I don't think, not to mention old friends. Now I'm almost an old lady. I could have almost grandchildren, realistically. Isn't that crazy?"
Sparrow laughed a little to herself, though her heart clenched in her chest. For a moment she wondered if she'd ever have a family, or if she'd die alone.
Next topic.
Lark mentioned being late to the meeting.
Wait, not that topic.
Sparrow tried not to let herself react, and as a result became stiff. Not here. Not now. She didn't want to talk about this right now. She wanted to enjoy her brother's company. She didn't want to fight. She would, one day, she knew she'd have to probably, but not now. How could she avoid it?
Humor, yes, humor!
Sparrow chuckled. It was forced.
"Dad's face was a little scary. It didn't make it better when-" Sparrow paused at her name. She didn't want to say it. The girl swallowed, opened her maw to speak, but nothing came out. She closed it and tried again. She laughed again, nervously this time.
"Needless to say, with that announcement, I think the whole pack got a pretty clear idea of what you two were doing."
Her words started with a smile, but ended flatly. She could feel her face and ears heat up though she wasn't sure if it was out of embarrassment or anger. She felt like she should warn her brother to be careful, but she was treading on thin ice already.
Sparrow plopped her fluffy tail on the ground several times, "I couldn't look up at any of the other pack mates to catch their expressions, though."
She didn't mention that it was because she was trying to stare into her father's soul, silently commanding him to do something- anything- or that she was forcing herself to stay planted to the ground in fear or confronting the woman herself right then and there.
Sparrow looked into the distance, a plastic smile plastered to her face as she tried to shrink away from her feelings and just try to be a normal sibling to a wolf who had a totally normal and not manipulative (and possibly murderous) girlfriend. Wait. Were they together like that or was it casual? Sparrow felt herself suck in a breath as minty eyes widened.
She wasn't sure which possibility was worse.
She didn't want to talk about this anymore.
Change the subject.
Think of anything.
Her mind was blank.
03-08-2017, 10:28 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-08-2017, 10:30 PM by Lark.)
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03-27-2017, 09:44 PM
Lark mirrored her feelings of not being an adult. Of course, the pleasant conversation was cut short by the mention of... that.
They weren't quite???
Not YET at LEAST???
Sparrow set her jaw to stop herself. She couldn't. No, he wouldn't believe her. No way. She had gotten to Lark that much? What kind of mind-numbing whoreness did Lillianna possess to move through her siblings like water? Starling, then Finch, now Lark?
She felt her heart rate rise. Was her fur going on end? No, stop that. Sparrow took in a slow, quiet breath.
Nope. Thoughts flooded her head again. She left for, like, how long, right when their little sibling disappeared and then she comes back and Lark gets all horny around her? No way, this was literally crazy. How was she doing all this? Sparrow stared at her paws, tears pricking at her eyes. She wasn't sad, just... confused and maybe somehow hurt by this. Disappointed? She expected Lark to see through Lillianna better than this.
Sparrow blinked a few times, thankful that Lark could only see the top of her head. Lark said he feared the day their dad brought it up, but Sparrow was far more worried about the day everyone figured out about Lillianna. Would he end up like their father, betrayed by the woman he loved? What if this fling resulted in pups? Would it be just like their mother? Lillianna wasn't the best about staying in the pack either.
Sparrow didn't have time to think long before Lark sprung the "are there any men (or ladies) in your life" question. Caught off-guard, Sparrow could only think of Ashmedai and Pere.
"Both."
She answered too fast.
She shook her head.
"Neither?"
Was that any better? Sparrow tossed a glance at her brother.
"It's... complicated?" Sparrow finally settled on complicated. That's what it was, wasn't it? With both Ash and Pere gone, Sparrow didn't really have a whole lot company lately. Sparrow bit her tongue between her teeth lightly so that it stuck out as she wrinkled her nose at her brother. She didn't really know what else to do, but she didn't want the conversation to go back to Lillianna. Not yet. She wanted to enjoy her brother just a bit more.
"No one you have to worry about yet. I'll let you know if someone breaks my heart so you can beat them up for me."
They weren't quite???
Not YET at LEAST???
Sparrow set her jaw to stop herself. She couldn't. No, he wouldn't believe her. No way. She had gotten to Lark that much? What kind of mind-numbing whoreness did Lillianna possess to move through her siblings like water? Starling, then Finch, now Lark?
She felt her heart rate rise. Was her fur going on end? No, stop that. Sparrow took in a slow, quiet breath.
Nope. Thoughts flooded her head again. She left for, like, how long, right when their little sibling disappeared and then she comes back and Lark gets all horny around her? No way, this was literally crazy. How was she doing all this? Sparrow stared at her paws, tears pricking at her eyes. She wasn't sad, just... confused and maybe somehow hurt by this. Disappointed? She expected Lark to see through Lillianna better than this.
Sparrow blinked a few times, thankful that Lark could only see the top of her head. Lark said he feared the day their dad brought it up, but Sparrow was far more worried about the day everyone figured out about Lillianna. Would he end up like their father, betrayed by the woman he loved? What if this fling resulted in pups? Would it be just like their mother? Lillianna wasn't the best about staying in the pack either.
Sparrow didn't have time to think long before Lark sprung the "are there any men (or ladies) in your life" question. Caught off-guard, Sparrow could only think of Ashmedai and Pere.
"Both."
She answered too fast.
She shook her head.
"Neither?"
Was that any better? Sparrow tossed a glance at her brother.
"It's... complicated?" Sparrow finally settled on complicated. That's what it was, wasn't it? With both Ash and Pere gone, Sparrow didn't really have a whole lot company lately. Sparrow bit her tongue between her teeth lightly so that it stuck out as she wrinkled her nose at her brother. She didn't really know what else to do, but she didn't want the conversation to go back to Lillianna. Not yet. She wanted to enjoy her brother just a bit more.
"No one you have to worry about yet. I'll let you know if someone breaks my heart so you can beat them up for me."
04-01-2017, 03:10 PM
(This post was last modified: 04-01-2017, 03:10 PM by Lark.)
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05-07-2017, 08:55 PM
Lark laughed at her, but it didn't feel all that bad. Sparrow was glad they could converse and laugh together a little. He said that he would beat up anyone that broke her heart and that she better come to him first. She was glad. Her ears perked, wondering for a second what he would do if only he knew how she felt about Lillie. Did that count as breaking her heart? She had half the mind to ask, but stopped herself short.
He said he was glad she was back and Sparrow nodded in agreement as he asked if she planned to stay for a while.
"I do. I feel like there's some things I need to do here. Maybe a purpose?" Sparrow shook her head and pressed lightly into her brother.
"I'll be here for a while," she confirmed.
He said he was glad she was back and Sparrow nodded in agreement as he asked if she planned to stay for a while.
"I do. I feel like there's some things I need to do here. Maybe a purpose?" Sparrow shook her head and pressed lightly into her brother.
"I'll be here for a while," she confirmed.
05-18-2017, 06:23 PM
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