come back to life
06-22-2017, 05:14 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-22-2017, 05:34 PM by Steel.)
Everything had been.. at a standstill for quite some time. It wasn't that Steel wasn't happy, though, he just felt a bit.. despondent lately. His children were on their own more often than not these days, and with increased alone time he found his mind growing more and more restless. Talis was a decent enough place to live, at least - Dragon seemed a fine leader, not that he knew much about that sort of thing. At least here he was free, even if life wasn't always what he had expected it would be. A sigh left his lips as he mulled over his private thoughts, paws carrying him around one of the more crumbled sides of the castle. The whole thing was collapsing, and seemed to have been this way for quite some time, but some of the walls were more.. rubble than wall, really. He preferred this place though over the plains, and often found himself seeking refuge among the stone walls. He wasn't quite sure what to do with himself today. Thoughts of the upcoming raid still didn't sit well with him, and he found his mind wandering to that again. It still seemed a bit silly to him - putting his daughters in unnecessary danger wasn't at all appealing - but he supposed this one was up to them. As much as he hated that. His brow furrowed slightly as he slumped down against a section of the castle's outer wall, wishing he didn't feel quite so helpless today. |
06-23-2017, 01:40 AM
It was a strange time in Esarosa's life. Things seemed to have happened so quickly; she'd progressed from a solitary explorer, to a dedicated mate, pack wolf, and most importantly, a mother. As a young wolf, she had never pictured herself as a reliable caretaker responsible for raising pups. Yet, she had fallen into the role so seamlessly, and it had become the center of her world. Now, however, she found she wasn't needed. Her little ones were no longer so little, and their need for her had waned greatly - in fact, sometimes she felt like a mere nuisance to them now. She found herself somewhat lost, unsure of what to do with herself. There was a sense of freedom attached to the odd feeling of uncertainty, but it didn't feel like a freedom that she wanted. No, she didn't want to roam anymore, like she did as a youngster. She wanted to be needed. As she wandered alone, she came upon Steel's familiar scent which brought a smile to her face. He was just the wolf she needed to see. Why hadn't she sought him out sooner? With a sudden skip to her step, Esarosa trotted down the edge of the castle walls, passing spots that were nothing more than piles of rubble. His scent grew stronger, and she knew she was getting closer to him. She grinned to herself as she saw the tail-end of his... tail... heading around a corner. She stalked along the edge of the wall, slinking around the corner and following his scent around another turn. When she found him, he was slumped against the castle's outer wall, looking despondent, much more gloomy than usual. Her brow furrowed in concern, but she was just glad to see him; perhaps she could cheer him up. She quietly made her way to his side, brushing her coat against his affectionately, feeling instantly at ease in his presence. "Steel," she said softly, her voice warm as she lightly leaned into him, "How are you?" She turned her emerald pools upon him, seeking out his crimson gaze, watching his expression as she waited for his response. |
06-23-2017, 06:51 PM
Steel had always hoped he might make a decent father, but even now he wondered if he was a very good one at all. He hadn't formed as close bonds with his children as he had hoped, but he had a sneaking suspicion most parents felt that way sometimes. He knew his father had expressed similar sentiments, despite the fact that his parents were all he had known for most of his young life. He could only hope his children thought the same thing about him. His mind wandered for awhile as he settled down, his muzzle eventually falling to rest on his outstretched forepaws. Only when he heard the approach of another did he stiffen slightly, lifting his crimson gaze to find his mate approaching. Despite his sullen mood, she always seemed to find a way to bring a smile to his face, and his expression lightened infinitely in a quick moment. "My love," Steel greeted her with a steady thump of his tail against the earth, his ears flicking slightly. Only adoration shone in his eyes as he watched her approach, leaning back into her touch with ease. "I'm doing fine. What about you?" He'd never been very good at talking about anything, especially his emotions, though Esarosa made everything seem easier somehow. |
06-30-2017, 01:48 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-30-2017, 01:49 PM by Esarosa.)
She didn't fail to notice the way his shoulders stiffened when he first heard her pawsteps approaching. She felt badly that he was so tense; it was as though he still wasn't accustomed to living in a pack with other wolves, with the notion that someone might approach him at any time. She wondered if he ever would get used to it. Maybe this wasn't the right place for him to be. However, her gaze met with his face as he turned to look at her, and she saw the bright smile that formed on his face when he realized who was coming his way. His expression lightened immensely, and she found herself distracted from her thoughts, completely focused on him. His affectionate greeting warmed her insides, causing her thick tail to swish rhythmically across the dusty castle floor as she rested herself against him. She sighed lightly as she felt him lean back in. How had she ever gotten so lucky, meeting him so by chance in the vast wilderness that spread across continents? And how had she ever gotten past his walls, getting to see this side of him that he didn't show to anyone. She was pulled from her inner world and back to reality when she heard his voice. It was a simple answer that he gave, and he returned the question back to her. "Couldn't be better, now that I'm with you," she said with a giggle, leaning in to press her muzzle against his cheek in a soft kiss. She was happy just to be with him, although she couldn't deny her earlier feelings, the feeling of not being needed anymore, being without purpose. "Actually, I do have something on my mind that's been bothering me," she finally mentioned, pulling away from Steel just slightly so she could look at him, "Our children are all grown up now and I guess I just feel a little lost... It's not that I don't know what to do with myself - there's plenty to do around Talis... I just - oh, I don't know, maybe I'm not making any sense." She shook her head, not knowing how to explain herself. Would Steel understand? Did he feel the same way, or was it just her? |