Pain changes a heart, love it in the present. What was she supposed to do? She couldn't face Rory or Frostbite again, not after it had happened again. She was convinced this world was full of bad men now. Twice men had taken advantage of her. She didn't even have a name this time. She hadn't slept in days now. She didn't even want to face Faite right now, but if she was honest she knew eventually she'd have to but would it be too late? She dragged herself to the water, this morning's breakfast was not agreeing with her. Her head hurt too. She just wanted some water and to crawl back into her den. She'd hid there for the past few days, only leaving to relieve herself, she'd been doing that a lot these past few days, and to check her snares for food. She probably should have went to see a healer but she didn't think that the best idea until she knew what to do about her last encounter with a male. Frostbite's mate would probably be who she went too, though she wasn't sure she could keep it secret. She waded out into the water and did as she had for the past few days since the incident, She started to scrub as best she could. She didn't want to smell like him or anyone but herself. After a few moments she let out a yelp as she lurched her breakfast. she panted for a moment and then moved away from it. She took a drink once she was far enough away and then dragged herself to the shore. HEr eyes were darkened and dull, breaking how she had seen the world was the results of this. No one had saved her and she needed to save herself. She would need to seek out Rory's dad or Rory for lessons. That or Torin, she hadn't given him french lessons in almost a week now, she felt bad for it but hoped he would understand why she didn't. She lowered herself to the ground and layed on the shore letting the morning sun dry her as she shivered a little from the cold. She had thrown out her deer pelt as soon as she could as well. She didn't know it but this morning Alois was on the wing, seeking out one of the leaders. He was trying to get either's attention, worrying for the young girl after her attack. He knew she didn't want to tell anyone and dared not tell anyone for it might risk his relationship with her. Walk, "Jewell "Alois" Think

Frost had been working on cleaning up the den. Replacing the old bedding with new pelts he collected and dried a month ago. It was spring and he felt it was time to get things cleaned up. He also wanted to make sure that Star had plenty of room for her herbs, if not he was more then willing to dig out another large room specifically for them. He would have to ask her when she had returned. He was hoping to get everything done before she returned, wanting to surprise her with a clean den that they both could enjoy together tonight. The task had taken most of his early morning, but soon he was finished and left wondering what was next. He headed away from the den down towards the water so he could get himself cleaned up. Later in the day he would head out and catch dinner, but right now he had some down time. His ears picked up the sound of a bird flying overhead and he looked up his eyes watching it a moment. before heading back towards the water. The water was not that far away from the den and it didn't take him long to get there. When he reached the water his eyes spied the colorful form of a fellow pack mate. She was upstream a little from him getting a drink. The tall male wagged his tail and approached with a gentle smile on his lips. "Good Morning Jewell how are you today," he called out. "Talk" & 'Think"

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She didn't mis the return of Alois or the fact that he had brought Frostbite to her. Alois simply landed in a nearby tree to watch. She turned her tired eyes onto Frost as he made his way closer. Her ears pressed back as she felt like she hadn't washed enough. Her nerves were killing her, she felt like she was gonna be sick once more.

It wasn't that she thought frostbite was going to harm her but she didn't want to have to face anyone. She was in her mind a walking rape magnet. What was worse was this time something had to of happened to make her sick. Her tail curled tight against herself as frostbite asked her how she felt. Had Alois told him? Hopefully not. "Jewell is fine." it was far from the truth and she knew it. She could almost feel the glare from Alois.

She gave frost a small smile, hoping he wouldn't call her bluff. Though after a moment she was turning her head and bile was sliding from her mouth. Her nerves were probably to blame for this one. She stood quickly and moved from the stench of it. She didn't even know that her scent had changed and that when she stood her stomach had a small roundness to it that it didn't normally. She looked to frost and gave him a small apologetic look for getting sick in front of him. She wanted to wash her mouth out again though. "Apologies, Jewell not mean to." maybe a walk would help her feel better after she cleaned her mouth again. But then again she might run into Rory or someone else like she had Frostbite this morning. "Frostbite is fine?" she needed to keep the conversation off herself.

Of course she had never had the birds and the bees talk so she didn't exactly realize why she felt even more high strung.she could feel the prick of tears in her eyes but still wasn't connecting the dots.

He went to the water's edge and bent down for a drink while his ears were pointed towards her as she spoke. She said she was fine, but when he raised his lead and looked to her he saw her head turned away and his tracker nose was able to pick up the foul smell of stomach bile. His nose twitched unsure what to make of it. She claimed she was perfectly fine so Frost decided to not press her for information. It she really would like to tell him, then she would. Maybe she just needed some company to make her feel better. She was apologetic about getting sick and he shook his head lightly indicating that there was no need to apologize. She couldn't help it and he knew that. She then asked how he was and he took a seat feeling a little tired all of a sudden. He was starting to realize he was getting older, though he didn't want to admit it to anyone. He still felt he had several years to live, but there was things in his life he had yet to accomplish. Though none of these thoughts needed to be expressed, no need to try and lift his mental burden on this young women. "I'm doing fine. I'm really glad that winter is finally over," he replied with a smile. "If you don't feel any better, you might want to venture to find Stardust I'm sure she has something to sooth a belly ache." he offered. "Talk" & 'Think"

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Pain changes a heart, love it in the present. He didn't press her for what was truly wrong and she was glad for it. He did make sure to tell her to see Stardust if she didn't get feeling better. She nodded slowly to him. She wasn't sure she could trust Stardust though. She might need to see if one of Faite's other children were into herbal things so she could keep it quieted. They didn't need to all know how she had been raped. She didn't want anyone to think her weak. Nor did she want to make anyone fight her battles for her anymore. She smiled at Frost though as she stood and moved to the side of the water. She cleaned her mouth out quickly to wash away the taste of bile. She then looked to him and decided she might want to ask him. He was an Alpha after all so he had to have an idea of who could teach her the basics of fighting. "Jewell want learn defense self. Who I should ask?" Maybe she should of asked Torin but she didn't want to burden him with more lessons on top of her English ones. It wouldn't be fair to him. Rory had too many duties to ask him and Frostbite was in the same boat she figured. Walk, "Jewell "Alois" Think

She understood which he hoped she would see Star. She could go see Zuriel too, but of course he would be partial to suggesting his own mate to get treatment. Though in all fairness he probably should be suggesting both women to go to. Both were experienced healers and were well trusted. She moved over to clean her mouth out in the water before turning to him and asking who she would look for to get defense lessons. He perked a bit at that, but he contributed it to what had happened awhile ago with that Ariet guy who had kidnapped and raped her. He was thinking that was the reason for her sudden interest in defense. He didn't know what had happened to her not long ago and that it tied in with the fact she was currently sick. "Well there is a few members you can turn too. Zell and Faite are the first two that come to mind. Torin, Rory, and Myself included could also teach you if you like." he replied. "Talk" & 'Think"

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