Hey! No more!
Mortis
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02-16-2021, 04:54 PM
This had gone on long enough. No, too long. He missed her presence, he had loved to have Hana in his life. She had been a ray of sweetness with her quick smiles and easy way of bursting into play. He had enjoyed being her friend, and being left out in the cold by her was no easy thing. Hika was not, and would never be, a replacement for her. They were both his friends, and held different places in a heart big enough for all of them.
He wanted Hana back, he wanted to sneak her into his den and fold his other wing around her side. He wanted to share salmon at his herth with her, and listen to Hika and Hana banter. Why couldn't he have that in his life?
He puffed himself up, trying to mentally prepare himself, and darted about the pack until he found a scent. Finding a trail to follow, he latched onto it, and it led him towards the beach. Of course, no surprise there, right? He trotted towards her, wondering if she would leap out to sea in a bid to escape him. "Hana!" "Hana!" He called, coming to a stop before her. His eyes boldly on her, waiting to see how she reacted.
He wanted Hana back, he wanted to sneak her into his den and fold his other wing around her side. He wanted to share salmon at his herth with her, and listen to Hika and Hana banter. Why couldn't he have that in his life?
He puffed himself up, trying to mentally prepare himself, and darted about the pack until he found a scent. Finding a trail to follow, he latched onto it, and it led him towards the beach. Of course, no surprise there, right? He trotted towards her, wondering if she would leap out to sea in a bid to escape him. "Hana!" "Hana!" He called, coming to a stop before her. His eyes boldly on her, waiting to see how she reacted.
02-16-2021, 06:28 PM
Again the sky was grey as tiny flecks of snow drifted to the sand, smothering the colour as though to make the world greyscale. For reasons she didn't care to admit she was less...worked up as of late, her frustrations felt distant and quiet, easy to ignore over the other thoughts that murmured in her mind. A lot had changed and Hanako with it but the mask fit a lot better than it had in the past few weeks, old habits died hard she supposed. Still when Toshi stirred beside her at the sound of Mortis calling out her name, Hanako's ears flicked back in a rare show of displeasure. Not this, she hadn't let this go just yet.
If they'd had any other quarrel she would have probably let it go, brushed it aside as though it was all in the past, like it meant nothing to her. But it did, more than she could ever dream of articulating. She was a woman scorned, rejected, twice and they'd hurt her far far more than they had the right to. There was no use in sitting around moping after them when there were other wolves who treated her right, made her feel like she was good for something. And then to rub salt into the wound Mortis had been so quick to replace her, shoved a pretty little koi in her place and expected her to be cool with it. Yeah...no.
She didn't leap to her paws to meet him, in fact she didn't even turn to face him. She'd play along and be nice enough, civil, but the warmth was gone.
"Yeah?" She asked, smirking a little as Toshi squinted his way.
Mortis
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02-16-2021, 06:52 PM
Her sub par greeting really subbed salt in the wound of their clear and obvious distance. He felt his eyes water at the cold rejection. He let out a soft, slow, breath. No. Just... no. He wasnt going to get worked up over this again. That didn't help anyone, and was unbecoming of the Armada heir. He could do better then that.
"...Hanako." he said softly, more in greeting this time, as he took a seat. Pacing himself a strangers polite distance between them. His eyes on the ocean, instead of her.
"I realize how much of a fool I made of myself that day. I was an idiot, but I had a lot of self-discovery to get through before I really got why. I was awkward and caught off guard. Well I treasured and adored your friendship, the kiss..." a soft, awkward sigh. God, he was going to make a mess of this again, wasn't be? "I'm not attracted to females, Hana. I'm... I'm gay." There it was, out in the open for her scorn. She was the first person he had admitted it outloud to. "My fathers going to kill me" but that was spoken softly, under his breath, and not to her.
"This cold shoulder.... it hurts. I miss our friendship Hana. I am beyond sorry j can't give you more, I want to, if just for your happiness, because I do have a love for you, Hana. I miss you. Please, can't we be friends? Even if I am.. I'm... gay" he said it as though he thought people would consider the title an insult.
"...Hanako." he said softly, more in greeting this time, as he took a seat. Pacing himself a strangers polite distance between them. His eyes on the ocean, instead of her.
"I realize how much of a fool I made of myself that day. I was an idiot, but I had a lot of self-discovery to get through before I really got why. I was awkward and caught off guard. Well I treasured and adored your friendship, the kiss..." a soft, awkward sigh. God, he was going to make a mess of this again, wasn't be? "I'm not attracted to females, Hana. I'm... I'm gay." There it was, out in the open for her scorn. She was the first person he had admitted it outloud to. "My fathers going to kill me" but that was spoken softly, under his breath, and not to her.
"This cold shoulder.... it hurts. I miss our friendship Hana. I am beyond sorry j can't give you more, I want to, if just for your happiness, because I do have a love for you, Hana. I miss you. Please, can't we be friends? Even if I am.. I'm... gay" he said it as though he thought people would consider the title an insult.
02-16-2021, 07:14 PM
Hanako should have seen it coming, should have found a somewhat reasonable way to wiggle out of this situation, but despite the wide open expanse of the beach she felt trapped. Cornered, like she had nowhere else to go. He didn't really give her a chance to speak, his words came out in a sudden rush, a torrent of emotion that made her wince, as though she'd been struck. Again. He was quick to shoulder the blame and the vindictive part of Hanako wanted to huff in agreement. This was all his fault if he hadn't made a big deal of it and replaced her in the blink of an eye than maybe-probably not- it would have been salvageable. But as with all things it spiralled out of control, contorting her feelings for him into something black and bitter. She could fake it and pretend that they were fine, that's probably what Mortis wanted but out of spite she just didn't' want to. It felt too much, even for her.
And then he claimed the reason he'd rejected her was because he was gay which...All right. She didn't think he'd lie about that and she wasn't exactly grossed out...considering what she'd done the other day but the way he was framing it all made it feel as though he was using it as a scapegoat. I love you but I'm not in love with you. It wasn't the fact that he was gay that bothered her, it was cause he'd rejected her in the first place that sowed the seeds of discontent. Forced the once friends apart till she could barely even look at him without getting bitter. She looked ahead, her icy gaze fitting this time of year.
"I'm glad for you and I don't have a problem with who you like. Do whatever. It's not my place to judge." She got to her paws. Though it was not his intention she felt like he was rubbing her nose in it now. I've found someone who likes me, you never will. Ugly, shallow, conceited cow."I hope you're both really happy together. Hikaru is nice."
Mortis
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02-16-2021, 07:26 PM
"Dammit, Hanako!" He said, getting frustrated at her continued disdain. It was slipping throigh his fingers, this friendship he wanted so badly. "No, me and Hika aren't together. He kissed me too, you know. I freaked out just as much, but no drowning involved. I let him down, but he didn't take it as an excuse to hate me." He was getting too worked up. He wanted so badly to be professional, to be an adult. Instead he just felt like a hurt little kid.
"Maybe you hate me now, maybe you want nothing to do with me. But I'm not going to give! I'm going to win back your friendship Hana, somehow. Your going to have to either give in to me, or tell my dad what I am and get rid of me. One way or another, either we will be friends or I will be gone. Your worth, Hana." He said, giving her ammunition to hurt him further. He wasnt entirely certain why, perhaps because so long as she didn't use it, he would hold out hope.
Until then, she would be finding flowers at her den door, and offerings of salmon at her favorite sleeping nooks. All with a token feather attached, of course. He wasnt kidding he was going to try and woo back her friendship. Maybe he was an idiot.
"Maybe you hate me now, maybe you want nothing to do with me. But I'm not going to give! I'm going to win back your friendship Hana, somehow. Your going to have to either give in to me, or tell my dad what I am and get rid of me. One way or another, either we will be friends or I will be gone. Your worth, Hana." He said, giving her ammunition to hurt him further. He wasnt entirely certain why, perhaps because so long as she didn't use it, he would hold out hope.
Until then, she would be finding flowers at her den door, and offerings of salmon at her favorite sleeping nooks. All with a token feather attached, of course. He wasnt kidding he was going to try and woo back her friendship. Maybe he was an idiot.
02-16-2021, 08:19 PM
(This post was last modified: 02-16-2021, 08:19 PM by Hanako.)
Of course he wouldn't let it go, why would he? Hanako sighed as she squeezed her eyes shut a moment, when she opened them Toshi was toddling away, he had no interest in hanging around listening to them argue. She was more than a little tempted to follow but she knew Mortis would only do the same. There was no escaping him, not when he'd sought her out with the intent of fixing things. Except he was making it worse, she didn't want an in-depth description of their relationship and then he said something he had no right in saying. And he didn't use it as an excuse to hate me. She stood with a tsk and flicked her tongue against her teeth.
Not only was he shifting the blame on her but he was trying to guilt trip her too. The urge to snap back was rising, he was making it hard to keep the mask in place.
"Look I don't hate you. But things are changing, people change and sometimes friendships can't withstand that." Not something she knew from experience, she was simply parroting something she'd once been told with a bit of her own flavour thrown in for good measure. "Move on, do your thing with Hikaru and leave me out of it."
There. That was as close to honesty that she'd dare get.
Mortis
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02-16-2021, 08:46 PM
The shock was slow to register on his face. It was like she had slapped him, and he didn't know how to comprehend it. He froze for a long moment. Stood stock still, he didn't even take in a breath. The only movement a slight tremor in his wings. When he did finally breath again, it was a rough and ragged intake. Well alright then. Thay was very, very clear. In fact, he didn't think he had ever heard anything more clear in his life. She had been there after Mal. She had seen the way the loss of that friendship had devastated him. He had trusted her. The crunching tearing sensation in his heart changed everything. Something was broken in him, maybe that something had always been broken in him.
When emotion finally crossed his muzzle again, it was a snear. It looked almost strange on a face that had never worn one before. "Okay. Alright then." He said, voice soft, but venomous. "Fuck it. I'm done. I'm done with all of it, this fucking place. These horrible fucking people. For a long time, you were the only thing holding me here, to a place I never wanted to be. I'm done with all of it" he mimed tearing a crown off his head and smashing it beneath a paw. "Tell the happy news to my father. It's the last fucking thing you'll ever have to do for me." He was breaking away from his family, or he would die trying. This place was fucking poison. It always had been.
When emotion finally crossed his muzzle again, it was a snear. It looked almost strange on a face that had never worn one before. "Okay. Alright then." He said, voice soft, but venomous. "Fuck it. I'm done. I'm done with all of it, this fucking place. These horrible fucking people. For a long time, you were the only thing holding me here, to a place I never wanted to be. I'm done with all of it" he mimed tearing a crown off his head and smashing it beneath a paw. "Tell the happy news to my father. It's the last fucking thing you'll ever have to do for me." He was breaking away from his family, or he would die trying. This place was fucking poison. It always had been.
02-16-2021, 09:20 PM
Hanako side eyed him warily. Little did she know that matters were gonna go from bad to terrible in a blink of an eye. He clambered to his paws and his maw became twisted and disfigured by an expression that well and truly did not belong on his face. He did not raise his voice or shout at her like Azure had done but his words wounded her all the same, perhaps even more. This was his last straw, a burden he refused to bear, and whilst it was about damn time she hated the fact that he laid it all at her paws. If only she'd played along like a good little thing he'd be smiling and content, she would have loathed every moment of it but she knew it was possible.
Why hadn't she just bit her lips like always? Except how dare he! Snuggling up to Hikaru just as Azure had been with Venom, they both treated her like second best. An afterthought when she deserved to be number one. Mortis shared more in common with his brother than he knew. They'd both lashed out at her, made everything out to be her fault and despite her usual inclination to roll over and show her belly she was sick of it. It hurt too much to even speak.
Her own muzzle wrinkled with a pained grimace, a far cry from the pretty smiles she used to shoot his way. She wasn't going to tell Sirius a thing, she wanted out of the Armada and she wanted it now. Even if only to get a breather. She turned tail and fled, not a single word uttered to the Fatalis.
Mortis
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02-16-2021, 09:27 PM