Uroril had been home for a time, a naive period of his life where he had actually held importance to the pack. Yahir had once defended him, been proud to admit that Iorwerth was his son and future King, though as the new pups arrived he'd been cast aside, his so called father no longer denying that he was just a bastard with impure blood. Perhaps it was an egotistical call really, he was too proud to remain in a pack that had respected him for as long as he had been able to remember up until the point he'd been pushed out of the picture. He had little emotion, didn't really feel the sorrow he ought to have of being practically abandoned by his father, it was more like jealousy for the runts that had taken his place. Maybe the picture had become a little clearer to him, the fact that Uroril wasn't as great as he had once believed, though he probably would have remained ignorant of that if he had kept his role of Progeny, the heir and eventual King of the pack.
As for Ahlon, their ways were bizarre to him, so different to Uroril. Perhaps their leaders had a fairer way of ruling, though he doubted he could have ever gotten used to their concepts, even if he had given them time. The main issue was this tight bond between him family, essentially raised an only child he wasn't used to having siblings and his father certainly hadn't seemed to be particularly close to his own. He hadn't seen too much of emotions pouring all over the place though the greeting he had received from his mother upon his return to Ahlon had been a clear enough demonstration for the man. "Oh! My darling Iolo!" A ridiculous nickname he was glad he was glad he had no other memories of and quickly informed her never to call him that again. Various spins had been placed on the sentence, along with continuous statements of how glad she was to see him, had thought she never would again, had been too scared to try and visit Uroril though had missed him dearly. Worse still than all of that soppy nonsense, she had cried.
No. Ahlon certainly wasn't a home and that family, no matter how much they had tried to welcome him, followed Arelahn's lead in welcoming him, albeit in a far more respectful manner he couldn't help but feel so out of place in it all. A fresh start had seemed like the only option and though he had lingered around both Ahlon and Uroril for some time, eventually he had left all together. Now he hadn't looked back at all and there were no words that his sister could speak that would make him long for his stay in Ahlon to have turned out any differently. Realistically he couldn't see there to have been another result, not for him anyway.
It seemed that his sister was coming to terms with that also. The illusion that the girls of the family may have hoped for ought to have been shattered the moment Iorwerth arrived at the door. He wasn't Satu's dream brother in the same way that he wasn't Arelahn's 'little Iolo' and whilst then they may have hoped with time he'd settle in and they could resemble a family of sorts, he had realised fairly quickly it would not be the case. They were far too different to function like that, whilst opposites could work together however with Iorwerth in the equation it simply couldn't be. It all came down to him, it was his fault, and Yahir's too of course given he'd been the one to sever the young man's ties at such an early stage of his development.
Cirala's next question was indeed a personal one. The answer perhaps wouldn't be satisfactory to the girl, whilst she may not have invented some fantasy of a big brother, Iorwerth would guess that she had probably shared that hope that he would be a brother of some description, not this stranger standing before her now. "It simply would not work." He responded honestly, there was no hesitation, it was truthfully what he believed and there was nothing that would change that fact. There were no further details shared, but that small little sentence was probably the most open he had been with his family, although rather blunt to him it was a fact, not opening up his heart. There was no sadness to the words, he felt none. How could you miss something you had never had the experience of sharing? There was no loss at all to him and he had never really thought that there had been a chance to gain anything. The trip to Ahlon had been more for convenience than a hope to connect with his mother and sisters.
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