It wasn't all that often that Avacyn went on patrols with Saracyn. Usually, it turned into more of a divide and conquer situation to make sure that all of their tasks for the day were accomplished, but there was something that had been weighing on her mind and she wanted to make sure she had a chance to speak with him about it. She certainly could have talked about it over dinner that evening, but it felt less heavy if she was talking about it while doing some other task. As they followed the border of the pack on the mainland with the quiet solitude that being out here provided, she was quiet for a moment as she started trying to find the words to bring up a conversation she never imagined she'd have to have.

"So... Sara... I've been thinking," she said a bit uncertainly, glancing over at him before looking back at the trail ahead of them. "Even though I've arranged a potential heir with Ikigai already... I still think we should try to find a way to be parents. Not for the pack, just for us." Ava glanced up to Sara's face, looking for his reaction. After how devastating their own attempt had been, she all but written off the idea of them being parents. That choice was a difficult one to make, of course, but it had been worth it in order to keep Saracyn in her life and as her mate. Still, the more she thought about it, the more she wondered if there was a way for them to have what they both desired. "The only thing is... We would have to have a surrogate. I can't risk going through all of that again just to potentially make another grave. I can't. We'll have to find someone willing to have our children for us."

"Avacyn & Saracyn"

There was nothing Saracyn enjoyed more than spending time with his beloved mate, so when Avacyn had said she wanted to join him for his routine patrols on the mainland he was delighted to have her join him. The two wolves prowled the borders of the Rock Garden, Sara's eyes turned up for any signs of threats or trespassers while his raptors circled overhead, providing an eye in the sky. The pair were quiet for a good chunk of their patrol, exchanging small talk every so often while they worked, but through it all Saracyn couldn't shake the feeling that something was weighing on his mate's mind. She seemed... distracted, wrapped up in her own headspace. He had just considered asking her if everything was okay when Ava volunteered those answers to him without him needing to ask.

It seemed that their future was on her mind, her thoughts turned towards pups and being parents again. Almost immediately, Saracyn's expression perked up as he considered the idea of trying for more pups with Avacyn—but deflated a bit when she mentioned using a surrogate. Oh. Right. That would be the logical way to do things, wouldn't it. Still, the Mendacium brute couldn't shake the primitive urge to reproduce with his soulmate, regardless of knowing the risks and consequences. "Damn, I was really looking forward to more puppy making with you," he teased her with an exaggerated sigh and slump of his shoulders. Looking back to Ava with a more serious look on his face, Sara asked the most obvious question to her proposal. "Are you saying you want me to go fuck another fae and get her pregnant then?" The crimson brute raised a curious brow. Would his twin prove to not be the jealous type at the prospect of him impregnating another woman?

"Avacyn & Saracyn"

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The immediate excitement and quickly followed disappointment that crossed her mate's face as she talked about trying to be parents again and then taking in her suggestion of a surrogate hurt her heart. She knew how badly Saracyn wanted to have children with her–how much they had both wanted that–but the whole ordeal had been torn her apart physically and mentally. She couldn't imagine risking all of that again on the foolish hope that this time around it would be different. Still, his joking about looking forward to the puppy making with her made her smirk and roll her eyes as she nudged him with her shoulder. He was a horny male through and through regardless of the topic of conversation.

Still, his expression grew more serious and he framed the option of having a surrogate birth their children in another way–to have him fuck another fae and get her pregnant. She knew that was what she was suggesting, but when he put it into that very blunt context it made a knot in her stomach. She looked down at the ground in front of them as they continued to slowly patrol the border, a frown tugging at her lips. "I don't like it, but... Yes, I suppose that is what I am asking you to do. To have our family... it's worth it." Bringing her gaze back to his again, she added, "The hard part is going to be finding someone willing to do it. Having a litter that won't even be theirs... It's a lot to ask of someone."

"Avacyn Medacium"

Seeing that he could still make Avacyn smirk at his awful humor brought a bit of comfort to Saracyn's heart. He knew this was a heavy, dour topic for them to broach, but it was one that had to happen. Both Mendacium wolves knew the importance of family, knew that instinctual drive to reproduce and continue the family bloodline, but they seemed to be at an impasse. Breeding with each other was off the table, so that only left one option, and as much as it disappointed Saracyn, he understood why it had to be done. He couldn't stomach the thought of another pregnancy turning bad, didn't dare imagine having to dig more graves for more children that would never be. So this would have to be their next best option if they truly wanted to be parents and raise a family together.

Saracyn heaved a sigh and turned his head forward again while they walked, muttering a low "I know it will be..." Avacyn was 100% right that having a family together would make any sacrifices and successions they had to make for the sake of healthy pups worthwhile, but it still didn't taste right in his mouth. He had sworn himself to Avacyn, vowed only to sire children with Avacyn, and now they were talking about him impregnating some random bitch just to make use of her womb. The thought made Saracyn scowl. He didn't just want any random fae to bear his offspring. Mendacium blood was a potent and powerful thing, and they had to seek out ideal mates to bolster their chances of raising gifted children. "That part won't be all that hard. We just need to pay someone enough to not care about them, or find someone who already doesn't care to be a mother and would be willing to loan us their body for a season." Elysium was wealthy enough that money wouldn't be a problem to buy themselves a surrogate if they needed to. "What's going to be the real challenge is finding someone worthy enough to sire Mendacium pups with. Regardless of whether they share both our blood, I will not have our children be anything less than perfect." Their pups would be as great and marvelous as they were. Nothing less of spectacularly gifted would do for Saracyn.

"Avacyn & Saracyn"

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She was glad that Saracyn was so confident that they would be able to find someone willing to be their surrogate since she was far from sure of that fact. Perhaps it was just because of her own experience and how incredibly draining it had been, but putting her body through that for someone else's benefit felt like an impossible task. She just had to remind herself that not every pregnancy was like that. In fact, most of them went far more smoothly than hers had. Maybe Saracyn was right and they could easily convince someone to do this for them with the right motivation. He did make a very good point, however, that they couldn't just have anyone fill this role for them. Saracyn's genes would still only be half of this equation and they needed someone worthy of contributing to the Mendacium bloodline to be the other half. Even though they were having to give up part of their dream and compromise to bring their family into being, there had to be some part of this that they couldn't compromise on.

"You're right," she agreed with a bit of a frown. "Well... At least we don't need to rush into anything. We can look around and think of ideas for who might be a good fit. We'll get to be parents one way or another." She brought her dark gaze back up to his face as they continued to slowly follow the border of the pack, a little smile tugging at her lips as she leaned over to press a kiss to his cheek. No matter what it took, she was going to bring this dream to fruition for him–no matter how much she might dislike the process to get there. Even though she was the one that came up with this plan and would likely be the one putting everything into motion, that didn't stop that jealous, slightly bitter sweet knot from tightening in her core as she thought about finding someone for Saracyn to have pups with. "Lets get this patrol over with and get back," she said after a moment, shifting close enough to let her side brush against his as they walked, letting her tail bush the back of his thigh. "I might be letting someone else borrow you, but... you're still my mate."

"Avacyn & Saracyn"

Thankfully, his reassurances and confidence seemed to put Avacyn at ease, at least a little bit. They would be able to find a surrogate to bear their pups for them, of this Saracyn was certain. One way or another they would be able to have their own family, like they were always supposed to. Truly the most difficult part would be finding a worthy surrogate. Any fae could bear him pups; only select few would be worthy enough to contribute their genetics to the Mendacium bloodline, however. Already Sara was running through the short list of faes he knew in his mind trying to find a decent selection from that limited candidate pool. However, his musings were cut short when Ava leaned up and planted a kiss on his cheek, pulling the distracted brute's attention back down to her. Cerulean eyes met her dark jewels with a half grin, grateful to see his soul mate smiling again in the wake of devastation. She truly was the strongest fae he knew—stronger even than their own mother.

Avacyn's suggestion to get their patrol over with quickly to get back to the island caught Saracyn by surprise. He had never known Ava to want to rush through any work. But when she began to brush her svelte body against his and caressed the back of his thigh with her soft tail, suddenly things began to click in the brute's brain. He saw that jealous, possessive spark in her dark eyes, sending a delightful shiver running down his spine. His twin's suggestive words brought back that sly grin to his muzzle, his blue eyes shining with a lustful mischief as he swiftly diverted their path back towards the island. "I am, and I always will be... but should you feel the need to reclaim me for yourself, well, I certainly would recommend you do what you want, my sexy alphess." A husky chuckle rumbled deep in Saracyn's chest as he leaned down to nip teasingly at Ava's closest ear, nuzzling at the soft fur just behind it as he whispered, "Y'know, there's plenty of hideaways out here we can dip into... We don't need to go all the way back to the island..."

"Avacyn & Saracyn"

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She hardly expected Saracyn to have any issue with her jealous desire to reassert her place as his mate, though it was hard to resist rolling her eyes as he encouraged her to reclaim him for herself, a smirk crossing her lips. She knew Saracyn had always struggled a bit with his place within their family's dynamic, but in this instance she almost envied him. He didn't have to deal with the weight of responsibility and leadership like she had been selected for from birth and now he was being given a pass to have another lover in order to make pups with another woman. She knew this wasn't a point of excitement for him since he obviously would rather have their pups with her, but since that was an impossibility he would be fucking someone else regardless. Only she would be left without a blood relation to their children and time alone while he completed this task.

The jealousy and possessiveness that she felt for her mate as she thought about the whole arrangement most certainly was just a way for her to mask the disappointment and longing that lingered in the back of her mind, but for now she would rather focus on that and spend the time she had with Saracyn now before they began to seek out their surrogate. They began to make their way back toward the island, but before they even got half way across the Rock Garden, she felt Saracyn's teeth teasingly graze her ear, making a grin cross her lips as he nuzzled her and reminded her of all of the hideaways they could utilize out here rather than walking all the way back to the island. Glancing up at her mate, she smirked and leaned into his shoulder. While she was hardly the spontaneous one out of the two of them most days, today of all days she was more than a little craving an escape and this was about as close as she was going to get right now. "Lead the way," she purred as she tipped her muzzle up to playfully kiss his chin, her tail teasing his thigh again. She had every intention of reminding her mate why he had chosen her as his soul mate to begin with before she sent him off to create their pups.

"Avacyn & Saracyn"