And I Know That I


I Sometimes Tend To Lose My Temper


And I Cross The Line

It had been quite some time since she had seen any sign of her family. Her heart would still ache for them, however. Wishing to see the faces of her brothers especially. Akemi hadn't ever been too close to her sisters but her brothers, particularly Hati and Baldur, she cherished above all others. Hati was her idol, a symbol of strength, and Baldur, well, she just had a big soft spot for the white sheep of the family. The female would swish her tail quietly behind her, the tip lightly flicking back and forth as she drank from one of the rivers that was in the area.

After drinking her fill Akemi would lift her head, ears lowering as a soft sigh left her. Things weren't the same... and they never would be. All the same, however, Akemi was sure she wanted to see her brothers again. Hati, Baldur, Thor and Tyr. Had any of them settled down somewhere? Or were they, perhaps, wandering around Alacritia somewhere? The small female felt a pang in her heart at the thought. Even after all this time she still dreamed of them being together, happy, a family... It was all she ever wanted for them all. A better life. The female would tip her head back, a lonely howl filling the air, though she was unsure if any would answer her call... let alone one of her siblings.




"Speech"

I Know It Gets Hard Sometimes


But I Could Never Leave Your Side


No Matter What I Say

will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns?

Hati had found himself meandering through the area around the delta, trying to find someplace else to hide himself from the heat that wouldn't result in people falling through the roof, when a rather familiar scent caught his nose. Snuffling, he circled the little area at the riverside, trying to confirm it to himself. Two familiar scents, actually, counting the one he recognized as belonging to one of the females who had invaded his cave not long before. The other scent he was sure belonged to his youngest brother Skoll, but that didn't seem possible. He seated himself, staring hard at the place and trying to decide if he was alarmed at the idea of the wolf who'd been so obsessed with Hroovitnir having found his way to this place. No, not alarmed. The thought of running into a possibly vengeful Skoll raised no worries for him, merely a hot rush of anger and the desire for blood. If Hroovitnir's brat wanted to mess with him, Hati would shred the little beast, brother or not. As if Hati had ever cared about his family, anyway.

The thought of his brother triggered a rush of memories, tumbling like pebbles through his mind. Hati lowered himself to his belly, crossing his paws over his head with a groan as if to block the sights and sounds from himself, but that of course did nothing. Why did everything insist on reminding him of things he didn't want to remember? Why did his family insist on following him here, awakening what was best forgotten?

As if the thought of family had summoned it, a howl - lonely and desolate - rose over the delta. Hati's snarl quieted, his face cleared of its scowl, and he uncovered his head and raised it to listen. That sad sound would have been easy enough to ignore, or to work up the fury to go put terror in the one who would disturb his madness with their self-pity, but the voice was Akemi's. It drew him unwillingly to his paws, heavy head shaking to attempt to deny the cry's pull. He couldn't help but recall the moment in the cave, when he'd seen - thought he'd seen - Akemi when he attacked the intruders. Was his mind playing tricks on him again?

But he could not deny the need to protect his youngest sister, the one wolf in the world who somehow still managed to have a good opinion of him despite... everything. The pain and sadness in that call destroyed him, tore what heart he still had to pieces. Breaking into a lope, he followed it.

As soon as he caught sight and scent of her, Hati slowed. Approaching with caution, mixed feelings surging and tumbling through him like the raging of ocean waves. Part of him wanted to grovel before her, confessing everything horrible he'd ever done and looking for absolution. Part wanted to show her how dark and lost he was, chase her away forever and save her from himself. Instead he was held frozen between the two, head held high and ears pricked toward her in an unconsciously proud stance. Gold eyes held dampened fire as he watched her, conflicted and silent.



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the sins of our father, the sins of our young

Hati isn't nice. He swears, he is violent, and is more than a little insane. If you can't handle what might come of that don't thread with him.

Hati wears a bear skull on his head unless otherwise stated in the post. He also has a ram's skull that might be switched in sometimes if he finds it again.
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And I Know That I


I Sometimes Tend To Lose My Temper


And I Cross The Line

Akemi would lower her head, a deep sigh leaving her little form. Even with Ebony... She felt alone. Her ears tipped back, eyes closed, head nearly touching her chest... She certainly looked the part of a sad wolf. If only she could change everything. If only she could change time itself... And shape all their lives into something much better than what it once was. A tear would slip down her cheek, and the tiny female, for the first time since leaving her old pack, Akemi would cry.

Those tears would slowly fall down until she caught the scent of someone else. At first she didn?t recognize it as Hati. She would lift her head, sniffing, opening blood red eyes. Her eyes would widen a bit as she saw him, ears immediately pricking up. ?Hati...? She would whisper, looking at him almost with disbelief. He was there. He was really there. She ignored the conflicted look in his eyes, ignored the doubt he held, ignored the fact that he probably wasn?t the best role model for her. She loved Hati... He was her big brother. She looked up to him.

Akemi would move, and whether Hati wanted her to or not the smaller female would rush up to him, brushing her head against his lower neck and shoulder, a happy whine leaving her as her tail started to wag fiercely. ?I?ve missed you so much... Are you feeling any better? You?re not in any pain, are you??




"Speech"

I Know It Gets Hard Sometimes


But I Could Never Leave Your Side


No Matter What I Say

will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns?

Akemi raised her head, watery eyes staring at him as she said his name, disbelief coloring her words. Still Hati stood frozen, caught between his wants and what he should do. But she ran to him, her small head pressing against his neck and shoulder with affection unfeigned, and Hati's own selfish nature won out. His heavy head dipped, curled around her and pulled her close in a hug. "Akemi," he breathed into the fur of her neck. "I've missed you too." More than she could know. "I'm fine. Don't you worry about me, nothing keeps me down for long. I'm sorry I didn't come find you sooner." He hugged her tighter, though he took care not to squish too hard. "Tell me what's wrong, Akemi." Not a question, not a demand, but a plea. Gods damn him for it, but he wanted nothing more than to help her.

"Speech"

the sins of our father, the sins of our young

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Hati wears a bear skull on his head unless otherwise stated in the post. He also has a ram's skull that might be switched in sometimes if he finds it again.
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And I Know That I


I Sometimes Tend To Lose My Temper


And I Cross The Line

It was like a dream come true. Hati was here... He was really here. She had missed him so... Wondering if he was okay after his injuries. Her other brothers must have found him some sort of healer, at the very least, for he seemed to be better now. At least well enough to stand and move on his own. Either that or she was hallucinating or even dreaming. But, if it was either of the later two options, that she did not want them to end.

The small female would press into the hug, breathing in his scent, eyes squeezed closed as she took what time she had in being close to him. She wasn?t sure when she?d run into him again, though she felt in her heart that she would. She had to. They were an inseparable pair. He was her big brother, her idol, and always would be. If he asked anything of her the younger wolf would likely do so without a second thought, simply because it was Hati.

Akemi would adjust her head slightly, just enough so that she could look at him from the corner of her eye. She was checking him over, trying to judge that he spoke the truth. Hati had always been strong... Very strong. When she had seen him hurt though she had been scared... Of losing him... That everything was falling apart. But seeing him again, real or not, brought a bit of hope back into her heart. The young wolf would close her eyes, shaking her head a little bit.

?It?s okay that you didn?t... You?ve found me now... And we?re both okay. That is all that matters to me right now.? Her voice certainly sounded much happier now that she was with him. Though, at his words, his plea for her to tell him what was wrong, she would lower her ears again, a soft whine leaving her as she opened her eyes partway.

?I... I was missing you... Thor, Baldur and Tyr too... Even Weth and Loki. I want so much for our family to be what a family should be... Not that fucked up pack that we once ran with.? She would shake, the tears falling fresh down her face. ?I?ve wanted it for so long... For all of us just to be happy...? Her voice would crack as she said the second part, grief overtaking her body.

?...Because of that damn man who sired us... Tainted our lives... We can?t be together though... Not all of us. We?re too much of a reminder to each other... Of the pain. It makes me wonder just how many of us will see each other again... And... It breaks my heart... Because I love all of you.? Akemi words had lowered in tone as she spoke, raw emotion slipping through her voice with each one until she pulled back and looked up at Hati again.

?I don?t know about you or the others but... I?ve joined a pack... I felt it was what I needed... Somewhere much more stable. But...? Such a sad look would pass over her face as she spoke her next words. ?I want to be able to see you again Hati, at the very least. I want to keep seeing you... And... If you want... I?ll give it up and come with you. I don?t want to lose you.?




"Speech"

I Know It Gets Hard Sometimes


But I Could Never Leave Your Side


No Matter What I Say

will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns?

Hati didn't back away, didn't let go of his sister as he just reveled in the simple joy of just touching someone who didn't hate him, wasn't out for his blood, wasn't fighting him. Her words sounded happier now, but of course he had to have ruined that too, and his question drew her back into her sadness. Hati felt his chest clench painfully, that he would hurt even her. He held himself still, though, and silent, just listening as she spoke. Spoke of missing their siblings, of wanting them to be a real family. To be... happy. He fought to suppress the jealous rage that flared in him toward his siblings. They were good-hearted, most of them, gentler and without his tainted soul; they would be better for Akemi than he would, and his own selfish nature reared it's head in fury at the thought. He stood with bated breath, choked into non-responsiveness by the rage, until Akemi's voice cracked with grief and emotion, and Hati's heart broke into a million pieces for her.

His hug turned fiercely protective, then, but she was pulling away and he had to force himself to let her go. She spoke of joining a pack, and he felt that same familiar, confusing pain in his chest knowing that she was finding her own way without him. She would come to hate him as their siblings did, no doubt, enfolded into the warmth of a real family as she realized the darkness that he hid inside was not to be trusted, unloved and unlovable in his evil. There was an expectant silence, and Hati knew he must fill it at last. His rusty voice grated into it. "Akemi, I don't want you to give up your chance to live a good life." Though every selfish bit of him was screaming that yes, yes he did want her to give it up! Give it up, stay with him, don't leave him alone with his memories and pain. "You have a lot of potential. Maybe most out of any of us. Besides, it ain't like we can't still meet up, right?"

More words out of Hati than he usually spoke at one time, but Hati felt like it wasn't enough. Not for Akemi. So he spoke again, rough voice tumbling out like the words were tripping in their haste, trying to inject a casual optimism he did not, never could truly feel. "You know Loki and Weth can take care of themselves, it's what they do best. And Baldur and Thor, they look after each other. So you got nothing to worry about. And you're a tough kid, I got no doubt you'll do great in your new pack. Everything'll be... it'll be great."


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the sins of our father, the sins of our young

Hati isn't nice. He swears, he is violent, and is more than a little insane. If you can't handle what might come of that don't thread with him.

Hati wears a bear skull on his head unless otherwise stated in the post. He also has a ram's skull that might be switched in sometimes if he finds it again.
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And I Know That I


I Sometimes Tend To Lose My Temper


And I Cross The Line

There was, for a small period of time, silence. Though the female did not hear her brother?s thoughts... She was sure she could feel them. Their hearts reaching out to one another. Calling. Even as Hati spoke she couldn?t help but feel the unspoken words, the unspoken desires of both brother and sister as they sat side by side. He wanted her to live a good life, and Akemi didn?t doubt this for a second. She knew her siblings cared for her, especially Hati, Baldur, Thor, Hodr, and even Fenrir... Perhaps even, somewhere deep inside, Loki and Weth cared for her too. As for Tyr, though she wasn?t particularly close to him, Akemi felt that he wished no ill will upon her... Just as she wished only the best for him.

The mention of her potential, had the topic been lighter, would have made it happier than it did. Any sort of praise, particularly from Hati, was beyond cherished. The girl would lower her gaze, struggling to find the words she wanted to say. They could still meet up... But... He had his own pack... What if their packs became enemies? What if, one day, she was going to have to face her own brother in battle? The thought that the others might even do the same, and the same fate be the outcome, unsettled the girl greatly. When all she wanted for them was happiness... Could it be... That fate might still turn them against each other?

More than anything she didn?t ever want to think about turning against Hati... About being restricted from seeing him because of their pack?s alliances... Her brother would speak on, and as he did so it only finalized Akemi?s decision. She would shake her head, fresh tears forming in her eyes as she threw herself back at Hati, clinging to him as if she was afraid he would disappear should she let go.

?...You know it?s not what either of us want though...? Her voice was quiet as she pressed against him, shivering with the amount of emotion that ran through her. ?They all have each other to turn to... Loki to Weth, Baldur to Thor...? Did Hati know Tyr was here...? ?...and in the end... It has always been me sticking by you... Even when everyone else told me not to... Even when you seemed cold... Distant... I still saw you as a hero... My big brother.? Akemi looked up to Hati now.

?...and that won?t ever change. I?ve always wanted to be just like you, Hati... Because where everyone else saw your faults and flaws I saw what was good in you. I can see you in a way no one else in our family can...? She would smile some. ?We... Kind of complete each other, don?t you think? Balance each other out and all that...? She was trying to smile, even if the tears wouldn?t stop falling. She knew her brother would prefer to see her happy. Akemi may have not always been the most observant... But the fact that Hati cared for her never went unnoticed.

?So even if we say we can still see each other... Even if you say that things will be fine... We both know it?s not what either of us want. I want to be by your side and you want me to come with you...? The girl would rest her head against Hati?s body, closing his eyes. ?So I don?t care what life throws at us... Who decides they don?t like us and becomes our enemies... I?m going to go with you, Hati. No matter what the future holds... I know I wouldn?t mind going through it as long as I can deal with it with you.?




"Speech"

I Know It Gets Hard Sometimes


But I Could Never Leave Your Side


No Matter What I Say