Maybe it was time to talk to her mother, it seemed little had happened to put her thoughts and fears to rest and despite her brother?s support and understanding she still suffered from guilt over these feelings. It didn?t help that she felt like the gap between her and her mother was growing ever wider, something that worried her to no end. The girl was not really too close to anyone right now, her brother not included and the idea of losing the connection she shared with the woman that had birthed her scared her some. Still she didn?t think she could handle seeing the pups for too long yet, they were just a constant reminder of what she was agonizing over. She moved through the pack lands, placing herself beside the river, the lights were not visible yet as it wasn?t quite dark enough yet but at least she was far enough away from the den chances were good she wouldn?t come face to face with any of the pups. Titling her head back she let loose a call for her mother. It was just loud enough to reach the woman but not so as to disturb to much of the pack lands. Speech, Goodness Gracious Great Balls of Fire, Thank you Nine!

The woman had seen little of her children, they seemed to be avoiding the new pups, and it broke her heart. Was it so terrible to them to have more family? To have more members to look out for one another and to love? Was it wrong of her to have had another litter so soon? It was much too late to second guess herself so the woman would not worry, as she told Dhiren it would not help the situation at all. So when she heard her daughter's call she was quick to answer. With a smile on her porcelain features the woman would find her way to Canta's side. She was always glad to see the girl, her beautiful quiet daughter. They took so much after their father it was scary. She would feel her ears lower in slight sadness as she thought of his sudden disappearance, trying to hide it as she brought herself close to her child. A nuzzle would be offered to her as she came to sit by her side, happy that she was so willing to hang out with her mother. They hadn't spent much time together since their trip to Seracia. "Good evening Canta," She would smile and nudge her lovingly, "How is my beautiful daughter doing?" Her voice was soft as she would gaze at her features, the girl was taller than she was already. Her and Dhiren both had become taller than their mother. "Speech"

Her mother would come, the gentle sound of paws and her scent wafting before her. Canta still felt a surge of comfort as she breathed it in, despite it all, the woman before her was still her mother. Despite herself a small smile rose upon her ebony features, forest gaze softening some as her mother approached. She accepted her mother?s affection returning it with a short nuzzle of her own. There was a comfort in her mother sitting so close and despite being taller than her mother it had a sort of protective feel to it. Her mother spoke and the girl remained silent for a moment, unsure what to say. Finally she sighed, shifted some and looking away, spoke. ?I?m not sure, physically I feel fine and nothing has really happened to upset me? or at least nothing that should upset me.? She paused struggling to find the words again. ?I?m just not to fond on the idea of you and dad having more kids, and I know it?s too late at this point but? I don?t know.? She sighed dropping her head, it was all so confusing for the yearling. Speech, Goodness Gracious Great Balls of Fire, Thank you Nine!

Eagerly the tired woman would come to embrace her gorgeous daughter, her alabaster ears falling to her head as she let a small whine from her lips. Her daughter would return her nuzzles as she withdrew herself slightly. It was good for the woman's heart to see the smile upon her daughter's lips, she would stay silent for a moment before answering her mother's question. She would confess her feelings to Song, telling her that she was physically fine but would voice similar concerns to Dhiren. She did not wish to share her parents with more children.?

Song was still unsure of why her babies were so upset about their having more siblings. She had so hoped that the children remaining in Ludicael would be as excited as she for her newest brood. She wished she had better advice for her children, but she was almost as lost as Canta. However, she wished to comfort the girl, to reassure her that she still loved her more than anything. "why do think you feel that way?" she would settle down to a laying position as she tried to nuzzle her daughter again. She wasn't being aggressive about her question, it was simple curiosity to understand her feelings. "Do you feel jealous? Or abandoned?" she would kiss her daughter's cheek gently as she asked the rather difficult questions. What would she be able to do to show her how wonderful her new siblings were.?

She couldn?t look at her mother, not right now anyways. Her mother spoke and Canta sighed shaking her head. ?I don?t know...? She would lean into her mother?s embrace, eyes closing and she thought. ?Maybe? Yes? On both accounts.? She was still so conflicted, everything she felt for her mother and for herself, all of it directed at the pups and all of it so muddled it was hard to distinguish one feeling from the other. ?I guess I?ve just been feeling? useless lately.? There was a raw truth there, regardless of if it was the root of the issue or not, this no doubt had a big part to play. ?When you were sick? Dhiren and Novel were there to help you and I didn?t want to get in the way? I missed your healing lesson?? She faltered, opening forest eyes to look at her mother again, the prickle of tears in the corners of her eyes. ?Novel is the healer, Dhiren is the protector? I don?t feel like I play an important role in our family and the addition of new pups? I guess it just solidified that fact for me.? Speech, Goodness Gracious Great Balls of Fire, Thank you Nine!

She could tell how hard it was for Canta to admit such things to her mother who so boldly brought the questions on. She would still herself, allowing Canta's gentle touch to grasp her heart. It was hard for the pale she dove to hear such sadness from her daughter, but she would pledge to do her very best to remedy such feelings. She would let herself listen, allowing Canta all the room she needed to voice her concerns all while trying to snuggle closer to the girl. She would be there for support no matter what. She could see the Tears beginning to well up within her daughters spring leaf gaze, her heart breaking as she heard the words her daughter would say. "Canta, you are so very important to me. My heart would simply break into a million pieces if I did not have you here with me." she would find herself choking up as she thought of Fal'dara and Lakota. Her missing daughters her heart called out for. "you don't need a specific job to be useful or absolutely essential to our family. I will happily give you more responsibility if you want it though, the role of.. Provider is vacant if a title is what you crave." her features would grow sad as she thought of the girl's father. "I'll be needing a lot of help if.. If your father doesn't return." she would say quietly as her bicolored gaze would take in her daughter. Nuzzling her gently, for her own comfort this time, she would pray that her daughter and she would come to a resolution.?