She would return to her mother?s side after speaking with Bass, he had agreed to give her a home in Abaven again after she had found her family, and after Valhalla?s fall it was the only home she had known. Her dream now would be to bring her family back with her, Emer, Val, Signy and Taddeo, all back to Abven with her to live happily ever after in the only other pack she knew. She had probably lost the closeness she and Bass had once shared, and she mourned that, but she still respected him. Even if they never got as closeness as they had been before they would still always be friends, and he had promised her he would teach her how to fight. She was slowly returning to life, to the energy and liveliness she had once boosted as a pup. She didn?t share her dream with her Mother, she would spring it upon them all once she found them again, she would find a way then... a way to convince them that this was the best thing for them all.
She took a deep breath, steeling herself for whatever the road might hold as she nuzzled against her mother?s side. ?I think that?s it for the storms, I?m ready to go find my siblings? she told her dear mother gently.
It wasn't really until she had discovered her daughter that Emer had realised just how tired she truly was. It had taken some time to get her strength back up, the storms certainly not helping though even as her heat faded, she was still unable to dive into the caves with an unknown pack. They may have been kind to Cecily, she would thank them, albeit it not in person, for that though she simply couldn't bring herself to trust them all the same. Her nightmares had eased slightly though memories still troubled her deeply now.
There was another role reversal taking place now, Taddeo had once had to care for Emer in the way that Cecily was now. Deep down she knew it was wrong, she was the mother meant to care for and protect her young though even further into the dark recesses of her mind, Emer knew she was quite the failure of a mother, these awful fears that consumed her simply the start of her errors.
There were moments she would allow herself to be happier though, glad to be with her daughter once more even if the rest of the family were still missing. The girl she'd once thought of as her darker miniature had begun to prove this was not the case however, taller than Emer now and far more responsible it seemed. She may have been a pathetic excuse for a parent but she was certainly proud of Cecily, even more so knowing that life certainly hadn't been an easy path for the girl from the word go.
Here she was now, ready to take the lead on what could potentially be a wild goose chase and Emer could only smile softly as she nuzzled the girl. "As am I. Shall we go then?" She was certainly having a slightly better day it seemed, Cecily entirely to thank for that.
In the days they had spent together outside the caves Cecily had remembered everything that had been good about her life. The stories her mother had told her when she could not sleep, the worry and love her mother had always shown her as Cecily got into trouble after trouble. She knew Emer was strong, she had seen it herself when the plague had struck Valhalla. She had not cared for her own health then, she had stayed with Cecily risking her won life in a plague that might have been catching for all they had known at the time. She had hid her worry from Cecily, when surely she must have feared for both their lives. She knew Emer was strong, stronger then Cecily could imagine herself being, even if Emer couldn't show it right now. For the first time since Valhalla had fallen Cecily felt like her self again, felt strong and carefree and invisible, and it was all because of Emer and her presence that she felt like this.
She smiled, and nodded as Emer agreed that she also was ready, and the pair could start their journey in search of lost family members. She would keep to Emer's side as they walked, doing it together, side by side. She didn't know the big wide world very well, her path to Abaven had been wild and confusing, so she hoped Emer knew enough to get them somewhere ? although she supposed it didn't really matter, even through she wanted to return to Abaven when she could, her home was where Emer was.
Strong was certainly not a word that Emer would personally use to describe herself. Weak seemed far more appropriate. She had been cared for and supported by her family for the first part of her life, wondered alone as a rogue for a year before getting herself into serious trouble and breaking down any fa?ade she had ever created towards the illusion that she was strong. From there it was only through the strength of Valhalla and of Valerius that she had continued to keep going, had been any sort of mother to her children.
Of course Emer was ready to leave though, unlike Cecily she had no goodbyes to make or things to discuss before she departed. Her reason for waiting had been to regain some sort of strength and let Cecily say what she needed to. Now ready the mother and daughter would silently part from Abaven. Where they were going Emer really wasn't sure though that time as a rogue had allowed her to travel all over Alacritia, there was certainly a possibility that she could at least vaguely navigate them around.
Despite her own newly gained confidence's, Cecily hoped that Emer would take the lead. Yes, she wanted to protect her mother and to learn to fight to ensure that she could but she also did not want to get lost. Her won experience with the outside world had been hopeless and she could only hope the older woman had enough experience to get them somewhere without leading them in circles. As it was, finding the people they sought in such a wide world seemed hopeless. She found herself wondering if there was some way to raise their chances of finding their loved ones. ?Mum? How many lands is there between here, old Valhalla territory and where you lost the others? perhaps they could do a systematic search of these lands first, the ones that she felt it would be more practical to find them in. If that didn't work, perhaps they could go to the claimed lands and ask them for news of the wolves they sought instead of searching randomly day in and day out, risking passing each other with territories between them and never finding them. Or perhaps Emer would have a better idea, she had never tried to find anyone other then Bass before.