Another attempt at an Apology

After he spoke, all Max could do was watch her quietly as he waited for an answer. He wished to hell he could read her better, but knew she wouldn't show him anything more than what she was right now. All the man new for sure was that she didnt trust him, that she feared him. That in itself ate away at him, even made him expect her to tell him to leave in reply to his question.

When she did reply it wasnt witg a strait answer but with a question of her own. She would give a small pause and then another question. How could he answer that without knowing exactly what she meant. He was sure he could try to mend things but would she let him? And to what point he wasnt sure as he knew there were several things she wanted. Like his feekings to change for instance.

When she would speak again, before Max could think of some kind of answer to her questions, she would admit to wanting to mend their relationship, but her sentance ended unfinished as if she were afraid to tell him she didnt trust him. The fact that she didnt trust him was like a sharp knife to the gut, the fact that she feared him only twisted that knife deeper. Again he would look at the ground but it was to keep from yelling at her. Why couldnt she underatand that he isnt and never will be that bastard that raped her? "You just dont trust me.To make matters worse, your afraid ill turn into him arnt you?" his voice was as soft as he could make it, but he couldnt keep the hurt out of his tone.

After a few moments Maximous would let out a deep sigh before looking back up at the woman he had so unfortunately fallen in love with. The hurt that had been evident in his voice did not show on his face or his eyes as he had put on a thick mask to hide everything he was feeling from her. The only emitiin that would come through would be in his voice. "What do I have to do to prove to you that im not him. That I will never be him. How do I prove to you that I dont want what he wanted? Because I think we can be friends again, but we cant do so if you think that im some kind of monster." though his voice had breen gentle a mixture of emotions had made his voice once again sound like that of a teacher who knew exactly what they were doing but also be like that of a small pup, lost and confused.