The Courageous Wanderer
04-13-2013, 01:00 AM
When he last wondered this stretch of land, Thaddeus Rogue had heard whispers of a pack that ruled the planes. It was said that they where war fairing and lived mostly separated. Every summer they would go out and find whatever resource they could and bring it back to the territory. He had wondered how an alpha could lead a band of wolves that where gone anywhere from mid spring to mid fall. Why could an alpha let leaders rise, and still hold everything together, when the Blood Wolves could not? But he was too late, this pack it seemed was not as successful as he thought, or they moved to a land more bountiful in there summer campaign, which ever the reason they where no longer there, and he lost his chance to understand the one event in his life that he was still hung up on, well the only one he had a reason to be hung up on, for the brother he thought he failed came back from the dead, and in all intents and purposes was doing well in life, well better then the shadow that seems to be fallowing him around, that same shadow that Rogue gets a glimpse of every so often.
Thaddeus sighed at that point. He could feel the wariness of his years wearing down on him. Rogue had seen a lot of things in his life, he had seen genocide and war, but he had also seen love and compassion. But it seemed that more evil lives in the world then good, and that was making him see just how terrible others are. And frankly that was odd. Thaddeus Rogue had lived in a loving family, grew up quite happy, but one event in his life changed all that, just as it does to everyone that he had meet. Little sister, beyond the whole starving thing, was a happy little thing, she just wanted to live life, hell she even talked about coming with Rogue on his 'adventures', now like a good older brother he had always hide the truth, he knew that the world was a terrible place, and he did not want her to see it... But what would have happened if he would have let her fallow him out into the very dark world with him? would she still be alive today? Would he be cursing the day he opened his heart again, for it only to be ripped from his chest again? Ah, Thaddeus was indeed in a terrible place, and he had no idea how to get himself out of it.
Thaddeus Rogue could tell that Gargie was trying in his own way, and Crusade was really pushing him to make his life here where his family could protect him, but hell, Rogue failed everyone that mattered most to him, and now nothing was different. He was going to fail at happiness like every other time he tried, it was just a matter of how long it was going to take the evil in this world to crush his love and happiness again... But no matter how much it hurt him, Thaddeus Rogue still feels the need to understand, and to love, he wants a reason to protect those about him, but he does not know if he has the courage to open his tightly closed heart in order to live up to those dreams...
Thaddeus sighed at that point. He could feel the wariness of his years wearing down on him. Rogue had seen a lot of things in his life, he had seen genocide and war, but he had also seen love and compassion. But it seemed that more evil lives in the world then good, and that was making him see just how terrible others are. And frankly that was odd. Thaddeus Rogue had lived in a loving family, grew up quite happy, but one event in his life changed all that, just as it does to everyone that he had meet. Little sister, beyond the whole starving thing, was a happy little thing, she just wanted to live life, hell she even talked about coming with Rogue on his 'adventures', now like a good older brother he had always hide the truth, he knew that the world was a terrible place, and he did not want her to see it... But what would have happened if he would have let her fallow him out into the very dark world with him? would she still be alive today? Would he be cursing the day he opened his heart again, for it only to be ripped from his chest again? Ah, Thaddeus was indeed in a terrible place, and he had no idea how to get himself out of it.
Thaddeus Rogue could tell that Gargie was trying in his own way, and Crusade was really pushing him to make his life here where his family could protect him, but hell, Rogue failed everyone that mattered most to him, and now nothing was different. He was going to fail at happiness like every other time he tried, it was just a matter of how long it was going to take the evil in this world to crush his love and happiness again... But no matter how much it hurt him, Thaddeus Rogue still feels the need to understand, and to love, he wants a reason to protect those about him, but he does not know if he has the courage to open his tightly closed heart in order to live up to those dreams...