The Prodigal Brother

Thaddeus Rogue felt the wight of the world push down on his shoulders, he felt his past failures all at once. But then he thought about the reason he had been crested the name Thaddeus, he would have given his life for theirs, if he would have known what was going to happen, he would have stayed and given it all to them, or in the least he would have taken 'Little sisters' away from the terrible life that she had been living. But what did he have to give a young she wolf? Nothing, he was a wolf with no family or home, and he chose to be that way, he chose to leave his failures behind, to only be faced with more. But even now Thaddeus wanted more in his life, he wants to live up to the name that he was crested with so many years ago, he wants to again be that brave fellow that would give his life for strangers, but it was as Gargoyle said, self loathing was his only destination if he did not get off the path he was currently on, he lived for nothing other then to exist and that was not a life, and it was not a life that lead to bravery and self sacrificing.

Thaddeus Rogue looked up at his brother, and stopped his own dark thoughts, there was that glimpse of a shadow again. He had seen it only briefly in Gargie's eyes and now it was almost forefront before his brother pushed it away again. There was more to Gargoyle's story then what had been said, much more, and it was dark from what he could see, but how dark he could not say. Ah they where an interesting duo, they lived a part form the family that they loved and grew strong because of it, but they both had darkness in their past that they could not shake, Rogue more than the him, Gargie was just better at holding his ground was all. Rogue wanted to be strong and brave like his name sake, he wanted to stop running from a past he knew he was not responsible for, but he still felt the failure of it all the same.

But in the mist of Thaddeus's thoughts his mothers face came to the forefront. 'To love, is to risk loss, just as to live, is to risk death. But when it comes to the ones we care for and things we believe in, the risks are worth the taking.' He had grown up with that saying, he had lived it for the first part of his life, he had opened his heart to 'little sister' and he felt the whole it left in his heart... But was he not a better wolf because of the loss? Was he not able to stand stronger because he loved her and would have given everything for her. He believed so, he believed the fact that he lived up to his name sake in the moment, and he wanted to again... "Ah brother, you have no idea how that saying shaped who I am today, I would have given my life for the ones I loved and then they gave up theirs for mine... But I think it is time to move past the hurt, my talk with you have healed a few wounds, not all but a few. I know it is time to stop running from my past, but I may need more help then you or I can give me."

As Rogue started to fallow his brother, he started to think about what his brother had said before the quote from their mother. "Hold up brother, are you trying to hook me up with a pack female? Ah you are asking a lot of someone still in the process of healing a heart full of holes." And then Thaddeus Rogue started to think, he had once meet a female in his short time in the pack years past. She was a skittish thing, and she was not used to the free world. He name was Mahniya, but he named her something more appropriate, he called her Ayala. "When I was here last I met a female, and I was wondering if she was still here, she was a strange thing, with a strange name. She called herself Mahniya, she looks like me kinda, but with read eyes." He wanted to find Ayala again, and see if she was healing from her past pains and he stolen spirit...