Lay Me Down
04-13-2013, 08:27 PM
It was all over. The once queen of Seracia was just... done. She had nothing left. She felt completely numb, nothing inside her felt like it was working. She had no one, no friends, no companions, no mate... Nothing. She was completely alone, just like she was when she was sick. She wished she would have just died alone, letting nature take its course. She should have never been found. The brunette temptress ran from the borders of her old home, eventually stumbling across the Rio Grande. She just couldn't do it anymore. Her mind ran wild, her heart thumped uncontrollably in her chest, her lungs screamed for more air. Legs gave out beneath her and she tumbled to the ground, unable to catch herself before she did so. She didn't even bother picking herself up off the ground. She laid there, tears streaming down her cheeks, soft whimpers escaping here and there as she sobbed. She didn't care if anyone saw. She just didn't care anymore. After some time she had decided what was to be done. She was going to.. kill herself. That was the only solution. Her life had been centered around Gerhardt and now that he was gone.. there was nothing. She was a disgrace, there was no way she would be able to show her face in public. The ex queen of Seracia who was dethroned by her mate. She just couldn't stand the title. She couldn't stand herself. She always knew her fiery personality would be her fall. But, the thing was, during her and Gerhardts conversation, she had bit her tongue and controlled herself. She was trying to change, trying to be a better wife and mother. She wanted to turn things around, she wanted to be the woman her family needed. She wanted to be everything everyone needed. She wanted to be a marvelous queen that would go down in Seracia's history. She was going to try. But it was too late for that now. Everything was gone. The ex queen forced herself to her paws, legs feeling like jello beneath her shaking frame. She felt worse than she did during her sickness. Hazy pools of blue looked toward the river. It would be an easy way to end it all. Just jumping in, allowing the swift current to drag her body like a rag doll. Certainly she wouldn't be able to fight mother nature. She surged forward, her eyes never leaving the rivers depths. Once she had reached the edge she look into it for a moment. She studied her reflection. It would be the very last thing she saw... at least she would know who she was before she died. A woman who's only wish in life was to please her husband, be a good mother, and alpha female. She had failed all three. Ears flicked back. She was a fucking disgrace. She turned away, unable to look at her reflection. Now she couldn't even look at herself. It was time. SPLASH. She jumped in without a second thought. There was no going back now. The water burned her eyes as she opened them, taking one last look around. She instantly looked up. It was a beautiful day. She could see the sun shining down with all its glory and grace on the river. The current dragged her farther under until things started to fade. Her lungs craved air, but she would not give in. Everything burned. She couldn't hold her breath anymore. She opened her mouth, gasping in water. It filled her lungs, it devoured her very existence. Things were turning black... Her body was failing her. But her mind was running wild. Scenes from her life flashed before her eyes. The first time she had opened her eyes, the first time she had felt her mothers warmth. The first time she had walked, the day she had gotten sick as a pup. The day she recovered, the day she had gone exploring and met Gerhardt. Oh Gerhardt. Them two, playing together for the first time, her staking her claim on him. Them growing up together, realizing love was unfolding between the two. Leaving the pack, going to start a life together. Traveling alone, having the best time of their lives. Coming across the volcanic eruption. Finding the three little pups she had once called her own. Watching them grow up. Her and Gerhardts fight, their first intimate moment together. Her being sick, Gerhardt finding her. Her healing. Him leaving her. Then black. All the air had left her body. THUMP... THUMP.... THU. It was over. Her heart had stopped. No longer would she feel pain, no longer would she feel anything. She was gone, her body left to become one with mother nature. Adette is now dead Speech, |