So Scary

*Anais* · 10-30-2015, 12:56 AM

Walk | Talk | Think

She could see plainly that Glacier did not agree with her assumption of his siblings being too busy to help with hunting duties. Truth be told, his point of view had crossed her mind at least once too, but she hated to think she was accusing them of something that she did not know for certain. It seemed kinder to assume they had other things to tend to, other important matters that prevented them from being around to help her feed them, and so she had stuck with that. It did feel somewhat liberating to hear her giant blue wolf encourage her to drag them out of hiding and into a proper hunt, and though she was still a little unsure about how it would all turn out, she did find herself considering it more strongly. "I might do that," Anais mused through a subdued smile that spoke of cautious optimism. Maybe she would. And maybe they would surprise her.

Just the same way that Glacier continued to surprise her. He must have gotten his breath back because he stepped closer to her once more, and as he came nearer Anais felt her heart beat steadily faster in her chest. There was enough pressure as it was to have the conversation she intended to have with him without her season playing with her thoughts as well, and the closer he got the more those wires got crossed the point she had to think a little bit harder in order to keep her thoughts on track and not simply become distracted by him. Anything interesting? Oh, if only you knew, she thought with a nervous, almost guilty sort of giggle, fully aware of the influence she was under but unable to properly get her mind and feelings under her full control. Oh goodness, this was so much trickier than she had ever expected it to be!

But she had already started it. There was no going back. "Maybe," Anais answered, her voice quiet and coated thickly in a nervousness that was growing increasingly more difficult to hide. The smile on her face slowly faded and the look about her became one of uncertainty and question, her golden eyes searching his face for any sort of reaction or response. "Possibly. I've been thinking a lot about us. About where we're headed. It's been...distracting, really. But I realized something." She continued to restlessly shift her weight from one foreleg to the other, and visibly fought to keep her ears from tipping back to rest against her head. "I love you, Glacier," - the words were spoken with heavy sincerity, drowning in the fullness of her affection for him - "and I know you love me too. I think..."

Anais paused, collecting herself as she stared upward into Glacier's face with nervousness written on hers. Was she really doing this? Was she really going to suggest they cross that line? It was frightening, all of it foreign and unknown to her though she had been given the lessons as a youth. And children...they were the biggest responsibility she had ever known in her life. But I love him, she reminded herself, and felt her heart swell again as it helped to bolster her nerves. Her anxiety had almost stopped the words in her throat, but with a patient effort she eased them out. And he loves me. "I...I-I think I'm ready. To be with you, and...start a family." It felt so very terrifying to say it aloud, made her feel incredibly vulnerable and painfully exposed. But she loved him, loved him with everything she had in her, and despite her worries she felt she was ready to take the next big step with him. If only he was ready too.

Art by Arin

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