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His response to her after she said that Arian was trying was taken with a nod. In some form he was right, trying to be a leader wasn't the same as being one. And Arian was constantly trying, yet always fearing that the pack would hate her for decisions she made as an alpha. She saw it now. Although Arian did well by taking into consideration the feelings of others, she failed in asking the general populous what their thoughts and feelings about certain matters were. Had she asked them whether or not it was worth making enemies out of two packs, Avalon was sure the majority vote would have been no. Personal spats with someone didn't mean the rest had to suffer, and she saw now the blunders and mistakes that were made because of one wolf's actions. And now, all of Sonticus had to deal with it.
She pursed her lips for a moment as she thought about all this. Thought about all the decisions and actions that had led them to where they were now. Taking a breath, she continued to listen to Valentine. "I see what you mean, it makes sense." She looked off to the side, studying the bleached bones of the trees for a moment. "While I have yet to meet Yfir's Alpha, I'm sure my thoughts would be similar as yours. Those who are respected are more likely to succeed with their pack, and are more likely to succeed in gaining respect from other packs." That being said, she wondered who really respected Arian, and who simply felt sorry for her. While Avalon admired her for trying, that didn't mean everyone else did.
She frowned a bit at his decline of her offer, but it was to be expected. If he didn't respect Arian, then it was no surprise. She simply offered a curt nod, and though she was slightly upset about it, it wasn't towards him. The mistakes of one, affected the pack as a whole. And now, Arian's past mistakes led them to gaining no strong potential allies...She thought imperium could have been a valuable asset, but she did not press it further. It somewhat surprised her then, when Valentine wanted to change the subject to her. Amber gaze met his blue gaze, untold emotion in her gaze as he talked about what he saw in her. While Sonticus lacked skilled fighters, and while not many seemed really...interested, in training...shouldn't she step it up and help them with that? But then...what if it was wasted effort?
When he told her he wanted her to consider Imperium, her gaze betrayed shock. She listened quietly as Valentine explained his part, and when he finished she remained quiet for some time. It was alot to process, alot to think about. Could she really leave sonticus to their own devices? Leave them with one less capable member? Part of her felt like they would be okay. They were quiet enough now that trouble should leave them alone. But at the same time, she felt like if she did leave, arian would hate her and she would feel as if she were betraying her adopted family.
She thought carefully before she spoke, perhaps she would think about it...but would she really fit into Imperium? She wasn't mean, or one to jump at the chance to run into a fight. She wanted to learn how to fight to protect those she cared for, would that be an option? "I may have to consider your offer...leaving sonticus would almost feel like I'm betraying them. But...I do want to learn how to better my skills, to use them to protect those I care for." Yes, she was unsure at this moment. And she needed to carefully consider it. Staring him in the eye, she became more focused as she wanted to know a bit more. Last time she had run headfirst into something, it ended up being something she hated. "When you say like minded individuals, what do you mean? I don't wish to judge your pack, but I've heard many things of some wolves from there being quite...headstrong, rude, or jumping at the chance to fight. I'm not sure how I would fit in there. Can you tell me more of your pack and those that live there?" Maybe seeing for herself would be better...but she hoped valentine wouldn't simply sugar coat his members antics. She was genuinely curious, but would she be the odd man out with completely different morals? |
