Daddy, it's all my fault

Voltage completly misunderstood her. It was like he was blind to thr monster inside of her. Her anger bubbled upwards, burning her from the inside out. It did a little to thaw the ice that numed her senses of the world. She parted her lips and took in a shuddered breath as she seethed. If he could just see thr monster, condemn her for what she had done. His words brought her pain, and thr knowledge and guilt that every pain he felt in this regards was her fault. No doubt if illume had lived she would know how to handle this situation, she wouldn't be swollowed by a monster that grew on the inside. She had always known what to do, she was the brave and fierce one, she knew how to take on the world, to have fun, and she would have known how to get through this nightmare. My illume she cried silently. I need you... why aren't you here? but she knew why. She wasn't here, because current had killed her. her tears finally came through then and she cried bitterly. "You don't understand daddy. You cant see it" the words where probably inaudible through her tight throat and tears that, now they had found a way through, felt like they would never end. She was beaten by the current that had built up inside of her.

Voltage would say something then that made her thing he was finally beginning to see the monster. He was right. Illume would never have let her drown and she had ultimately proven that. "No. Illume always protected me. That's why she's dead. Because I needed protecting, because I called out for her and she saved me, and I couldn't save her. All I could think aboht was getting to shore. I'd dont even look back daddy. I didn't even know she was gone. I'm nothing without illume and now I'm reason she's dead. I don't even know who I am any more daddy. I'm not anyone any more. I'm just a monster" she didn't think she would have to explain all that to him but clearly he couldn't see it without her guidance.

That he begged for her forgiveness was a bitter irony. Thr innocent begged for the guilty to understand. She had never see him cry before and seeing him struggle with tears now nearly stilled her heart. Just look at the damage she had dealt. She had done this too, for taking illume from him, for coming back a monster and not as current. He had lost both hid daughters and he didn't even know it yet. Poor voltage, her poor sweet father, and she would never be able to undo what she had wrought. "I'm the monster. And I won't even ask your forgiveness. Daddy..." She trailed off, losing her voice, a raspy sound emitted from her throat, and she was crying again. How could she explain to him that he couldn't and shouldn't forgive thr monster.