I Just Want to Fly
Feeling him nuzzle gently into her neck made her heart beat faster, but it was good feeling. It was a new feeling she's never experienced before...and this feeling only occurred to her when she was around Tiburtius. Her heart fluttered like a butterfly when he showed up, especially when he got close to her. Better yet, touched her sweetly like he was doing now. Sometimes it made her body ache...she didn't know why, but part of the reason was because she didn't have the courage to express her love for him as much as he did. He was able to nuzzle into her neck and chest so gently, but she was...scared. Scared that if she did something like that, he'd take it the wrong way. Or maybe that the way he embraced he was just out of friendliness and nothing more. Arivae cringed at the thought, and pressed closer to him, her ears flattening back against her head. A friend wouldn't nuzzle her neck, right? These past few seasons had meant so much to her...and she had always thought that they were just friends for a while. But now, she thought differently. Maybe Tiburtius was more than just her best friend. Did he feel the same? Arivae felt herself shift as he spoke, and she smiled, her face beaming. She pulled back and gazed him. It was hard for her to muster up this much courage, really. But she loved Tiburtius. She wanted to be with him all the time, to snuggle up with him in her tiny den and know that he was always there for her. She opened her maw, then shut it. She knew what to say, but she was shaking because she was so scared. Not only would she look like an idiot, but she'd lose what she thought was a friend forever. Arivae swallowed and remembered the affection her mother and father shared with one another, and she forced an uneasy laugh to leave her lips. "T-Tiburtius..." She choked out, pressing her nose against his, their faces literally inches away from each other. The girl curled her tail into her trembling body slowly as she found the strength to continue. "What's stopping us...?" She whispered, her ears flopping back like a frightened puppy. What would he think of her if this was just a mistake? "I...I really, really care about you, Tiburtius. And I want to be with you forever. But...sometimes I can't muster up the courage to show you how much I care about you...and it hurts. It hurts my heart when you're able to embrace me so easily when I can't do the same." She swallowed and stopped herself from bursting into tears, her eyes slowly moving to the ground shakily. "Help me to understand...whether or not this is more than friendship. Because I can't stand hesitating when I want to curl up with you and stay the night with you." She finished, gripping the ground for support. She hated this...she didn't want to see his reaction. Something about this told her he would reject her like a rotten piece of meat. "Talk" "You" Think |