Hold back the fear

She was mildly surprised when Vereux approached her, touching her shoulder as he spoke. She bit back her emotions, taking a deep breath before responding. "Thank you, Vereux. Things have been quite...stressful, as of late. I'm glad to have someone to talk to at last. Someone that I know, at least." She was truly grateful to have found a good friend after everything that had happened. She had been through alot, perhaps not as bad as others, but even as an adult she couldn't seem to escape the sorrow that was creeping back up on her from her younger days. Indeed, she thought Newol would be able to change all of that...did they not have a connection when they first met, and when he returned? Maybe she had been too naive still...just as she had been back then. It hurt, the pain still raw. And yet, she couldn't help but still worry about Newol. Questions about him swam in her head. Was he dead? No. If surreal cared enough she would have told her...Unless surreal was only using him. But she hoped that wasn't the case. She dismissed the thought, it wasn't what happened. She hoped not at least.

"I want to stay with you Avalon." What? She looked at him, listening to him as he offered to help her with her children, apologizing as well. "What?" She was a little confused with the thought. She knew a little about his past, his father's tyranny and how he'd been enslaved and abandoned. Losing his wife and children, among other things. She offered a small smile, it wouldn't hurt to have a friend in Imperium. Maybe it would help her gather up her thoughts, and she wouldn't have to worry about leaving her kids with someone she didn't trust. "I understand. It would be a good idea, I need the help more then anything and I've yet to find someone in the pack that I trust with my children..." Then it struck her, she wasn't exactly in power to simply bring him into the pack. It was Valentine's decision after all. "I must caution you, I'm not a beta anymore. I don't hold the Rank I did in sonticus. You would have to speak to Valentine, and I will be there if you wish. He may test you though, so just be prepared for that."