Why are there stars?
01-08-2016, 08:27 PM
Astrea felt restless again, well maybe not again, she always felt restless, felt like she was failing both little Illume and Volt when she was home instead of out there looking for not just one of her nieces but both... The other had chased after her sister, driven by guilt more than likely and that was also Astrea's fault... Would she ever be good enough for her family? Would she always try to fix one family member and then come find that another had just fell apart without the Star Dreamer even sensing it? Astrea got up then, she had moved back to her perch, it was not as secluded as it normally was with the family sleeping much closer then normally but even so Astrea still could not seem to go to them for warmth and comfort... It seemed that no matter how much she put herself out in the open she was still in the shadows, her internal star forever separated from the others... Loneliness hit the Star Dreamer then, like nothing else Astrea felt so alone, even when she was in the mist of her family, even when she was shown great affection, she still felt the outsider, like she did not belong with them, here on this earth with them... Astrea blew out a breath and then moved, wanting to see her siblings if not join them, she needed to remind herself why she could not just sprout wings and go to the stars like she wished to do... But as she neared her family a movement caught her eye. A small shape moved, she moved a short distance away from the group and then plopped down in disgruntled dejection. With a small smile Astrea moved forward then and settled near the girl. She remembered the day the girl was born, saw the swirling colors in her mind, saw the energies that was this child's gift... Astrea sat next to the child, her eyes first studding the look on the girls face and the wonder as she had looked up at the sky. At the stars. Astrea tilted her head then, she had not been home often, maybe staying only a night or two so she had not had much of a chance to get to know the new young ones. She wondered if the child even knew who Astrea was. Did she know her as her aunt? Or was it like little Illume again? Not even knowing she had a star spotted aunt? Astrea wanted to sigh again, she not only failed little Illume and Currant but she was failing her new nieces as well. She needed to make time for them both, needed to always be with them and make sure to make time for them. Astrea nodded then and fallowed the girls gaze, she would start now, she knew the child was probably unable to settle down for a full night sleep so maybe she would like a bed time story instead. The wind gusted then, tossing the feathers around her. She closed her eyes then and breathed in the clean scents of her home. |