I must confess
His muscles twitched, as he listened to every word he said. Something about this was all wrong.... abandoned. His son was missing and with.... HER? Games, right. Like when he had been jumped - violated. Forced to have blood spilt on his tongue. He still remembered those screams, and it tortured him silently. Did Kakashi feel the same? His brother sacrificed so much, a smile cracked through his crying lips. He might have been deemed insane, but he was so happy. So happy! All his siblings had left, and with Kakashi being the only one left, just like with Limno. He would love them even if they hurt him.
"Selfish, yes. I was - I was when my mate who gave birth to my children tore me away from a seige I was supposed to be defending my pack against. When I looked into the eyes of her monsterous mates, two of them. How I was torn apart and was PROMISED if I ever returned harm would come to them. Thrown into a fighting ring, betted against with blood and drugs. And finally..... finally when I had the strength to rip myself from my hinges. I said - this was the last time. The first woman I fell in love with I left - the second vanished into thin air and I searched EVERYWHERE for her. I've left Abaven Three times Kakashi - I wouldn't be allowed in because I've torn the alpha's heart out. How could I... how could I ever tell my kids that their mother was a lying cheating whore? How could I say it wasn't my own fault, I WAS selfish. I wanted a family when there was one right before my eyes. Now my son's missing..... and it's all my fault." his smile vanished and he fell onto his front paws. He hadn't cried not once since that night until now. Only would he show his brother his vulnerability. "It's okay to hate me..... because I hate me too." his body shivered as he looked at the ground.
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