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Nothing could define the amount of pain inside her heart. Absolutely nothing. Vali could have slowly torn her leg off and that still wouldn't equate to her pain. During the meeting she had cried and sobbed, but after leaving the meeting and running to the edges of the border she cried so hard a migraine formed. It wasn't because she felt bad about everyone yelling at her. It wasn't that she hadn't been welcomed back with open arms. No, not a single selfish thought ran through her head. Her mind was so crammed with thoughts about her family that she couldn't think of anything else. About Bass, about Sparrow...about Sandpiper and Lark and all her other beautiful children. Finch. She had gotten poisoned and she hadn't been there to hold her and help her recover. To comfort her through the pain that she went through... it was when she realized how awful that must have been for her daughter that she really started to sob.

It was Bass too. She couldn't imagine what it must have been like to lose someone he loved so dearly again. She had certainly missed him... but she knew where he was. If she hadn't know his whereabouts she wouldn't gone on a nonstop journey to find him. She also would have been mad upon his return. But mostly relieved to see him again... to see his bright smile and to hear his voice again. Except Bass had a pack to run, children to raise, etc. Not to mention he seemed quite upset with her. He hadn't even looked at her... Wren swallowed another sob that threatened to come up. She was at the edge of the Monument Rapids, sitting and hunched over to stare at the water. She was debating on staying here or running away. Would Bass even speak with her? Would it be better to just leave? She wanted the best for her husband.. she really did. And if it was best to leave him, she would. She'd do anything to lift the weight that she had burdened her family with upon coming home.

Wren curled her tail into her side and felt her knees shake a bit. Bass may arrive and start screaming at her. As much as she hated to admit it... there was one selfish thought that had squeezed it's way into her jam-packed mind. And that was the fear of Bass' reaction to her return. She had seen it at the meeting, but that was.. at a meeting. Alone? He could yell and scream and curse at her all he wanted. She had hurt his children.. she had hurt him. She knew she deserved it but being screamed at by the man she still loved and adored was going to be awful. It was already awful that he hadn't even looked at her during the meeting. Wren's head throbbed and screamed with pain and she whined helplessly, lowering down to her belly and shutting her eyes. She silently wondered what she would do if she was chased off. Go back so her parents? Travel to another region in Alacritia? She didn't know. And frankly, she didn't care. She just wanted her family to live in peace again.. to live without the burden of feeling rejected and betrayed.

"Burn Baby Burn"