The Sun Will Shine Again
07-26-2016, 10:43 AM
God was he bad at talking about these sorts of things. Things often came easily with Esarosa, and when they didn't - he froze up. How did they even get to talking about having kids, anyway? It wasn't like the thought had never crossed his mind at all. It had, but not to the extent she was talking about. He'd never really considered it. Steel tried to keep his expression neutral, not wanting Esarosa to freak out at his own slightly confused expression. The last thing he wanted to do was to upset her. She admitted she had thought about it. Huh. He wouldn't deny he'd thought about the act that came before starting a family.. he was quite attracted to her, but he'd never been the best at expression himself, certainly not when it came to being physically affectionate. His face felt suddenly warm as his mind reeled back to the topic at hand. "I..." part of him wanted to say that he wasn't ready for it, but was he ever ready for anything? Steel felt suddenly quite pathetic. What kind of man was he, letting her take the initiative all the time? He knew he didn't make things easy on her, but somehow, she didn't seem to mind. His brows pulled together as he leaned closer to her, not wanting her to feel as though he might be pushed away by the topic of discussion. He knew if she let it go, it would be difficult to bring up again. For him, at least. "I don't know if I'd be a good father," he started, his words careful and earnest as he eyed her, attempting to catch her gaze. "I'm actually scared of being an awful one. But I'll try," he offered, tentatively, though his voice was steady. "If that's what you want to do, we can try." Steel hoped that was good enough for her. Breathing softly - feeling as though a weight had been lifted from his shoulders, and hopefully hers now too - he leaned forward to press his nose to her neck, inhaling her scent greedily as though he might die without her next to him. |
