I was fine
For a moment he could swear he almost couldn't see straight. The whole situation had left him in a tizzy, he hadn't seen Zephyra in days maybe a glance and that was enough to make his heart simply want to stop beating. As stupid as it sounded.... she was the only one the only one he could not lose. If he found himself drifting he didn't know what he would do. His stumbling paws rose and he sought out her scent, tripping over whatever was in front of him. It was less then graceful as he finally found her since his nose didn't seem to be working through all the emotions. Of course she was mad, and it wasn't just her that deserved an apology. All of the sisters did, but what hurt most of all - was he still entirely felt Ren had abandoned them where they needed him most. "I would simply apologize my I know no amount of sorry could make up....." he started as he rose himself. He sat down though, his head lowered between his shoulders lined up that way. Shameful really. "I didn't like any of it, I didn't like how the wolves of the pack came to defend me, and I didn't like how I treated you as if you had no say. You are just as I am. This pack is yours, not consulting you... it was wrong." Rivaxorus breathed harshly as his eyes looked at her. "I hope you can forgive me Zephyra, me and Ren have had problems from the start and I tried, I tried really hard to give him a chance and he just stepped all over me. He led me to believe that he didn't give a rats ass about any of you and I was scared something would happen that would end up hurting you all." he strained his eyes. "I gave him a choice, to stay or leave so whatever he does is up to him. But I never... I never want you to feel like this again. I... suck." he clamped his teeth together.
"The only thing I want is for you and your siblings to feel wanted. For the one I love to have a good life as I can make it. So for that, I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't talk to you, and I'm sorry I let a foolish squabble burst out like that. If you can forgive me it won't happen again." his head lowered. Here he was a man at her own devices, and she could do what she wished with him. Truly, feelings were bottled up in him and he could have sworn he had something wrong in his head. Was it his mothers cursed, had something he worked so hard for been for nothing. In the end would he end up down the same path as her. |
