Breaking Me Down
Was she wasting her time? She felt like it. Nobody needed her. For so long all she wanted was to feel needed. And while there were some that wanted her, nobody truly needed her. It seemed that no matter how much she loved on her kids, they all took the independent route. Did she try too hard? Was she smothering them? Was she not giving them enough attention? So many things reeled through her mind, that even when Tan shouted out her name, she didn't hear it. She felt like she was in some sort of trance. The world around her had gone completely silent, the only sound was the pounding of her heart in her ears. She had lost the happiness that she thought she had found. And was convinced that all she deserved was to live in misery, to forever remain in the pits of whatever hell life decided she was to live in. She had tried so hard to figure out why...but she could never find the answer.
Just as the earth fell away from her feet, she suddenly felt a pain in her skin. A sudden gasp escaped her as she was thrown backwards, the ground meeting her back with a dull thud and the sudden motion jarring her numb body. She barely heard the angry words, tear filled eyes opening to focus on the creature looming over her. Amber gaze that was once fiery and bright, was now defeated and dull. The emotional turmoil clear within her broken gaze. "Bass?" what was he doing here? Her words came out a broken whisper, the woman lying there beneath him. She didn't even attempt to stand, the alphess too tired to even move.
One ear would barely move when he called to Tan to bring moss. Her eyes showed confusion for a moment. Moss? What did she need moss for? She was so out of it, that for the moment, she'd forgotten about everything else. Through her blurry vision, she watched as Tan soared away to find what was asked of her. Her attention would somewhat return to the angry alpha, her heart pounding against her chest. She didn't know what to say...she barely registered what had almost just happened. "I..."She what? She had no idea what to tell him. But before she could think about what to say, a light thud sounded next to them.
"Here. I've gathered as much as I could." Tanaraq hopped closer, moss in her beak and talons as she placed it next to them. A stern but worried look watched them, and she knew how distressed Avalon was. Looking at the cream alpha, she would speak. "She's lost a lot of blood from her wounds...but I fear she's wounded in more ways then just physically..." She watched as Avalon remained quiet. If she didn't, or couldn't speak...then tan would fill him in on what he needed to know. |
