Breaking Me Down
He was right. But she didn't want to admit nor acknowledge it. While she knew she couldn't force her children into something she wanted them to be, it didn't mean she would stop trying to guide them into being the best they could be. She became distracted for a moment when she remembered the things that Tan had brought back, and with a sigh and a disgruntled look at the herbs, she reluctantly leaned down and took them, the bitter taste making her cringe as she chewed and swallowed as quickly as she could. When she finished, she swept her tongue across her teeth to rid herself of the taste, though it would be some time until she could find some water to really wash it away. "I know you're right...I just..." What? She didn't really want to believe it. She wanted her kids to turn out the best they could be, and not some lowlife that would resort to lying and cheating. For now, she would simply do what she could to guide them. Teach them the best she could. But in the end, they would choose who they wanted to be. She flicked an ear then when Bass seemed to grow wary, tucking his chin. She made no motion at all that it bothered her, what did he think she was going to do? Attack him? She had no reason to, even with what she was going through at the moment, she was aware of those around her. She wasn't going to flat out attack someone trying to help her without good reason, so in a way, his reaction was slightly offending but she made no comment nor indication that she had seen him do that. Maybe he didn't trust her. Maybe he didn't really know her at all, or even well enough to know that she wouldn't attack him. Oh well. Some things were too good to be true, she supposed. It was no wonder she had a hard time trusting others. That or maybe he thought she was just some crazy lady high on hormones and emotions. But still, even with her heat season, she was always level headed and usually not so emotional. But this was different.
She listened to him quietly when he talked about his pack, and then suggesting nearly the same thing that she had suggested last they met. This time though, her ears flattened to her head. Suppressing the urge to snarl and curl her lips. She never suggested that he get rid of his pack. And after all the work that he knew she had put in, how dare he even say that. Sure, maybe finding someone to help her with the pack, or maybe taking a break didn't sound like a bad idea. But there was no way in fucking hell she was going to just get rid of it. Not after all the work she put into it. And she was sure that if she had told him that very thing that he just said, about getting rid of it, he would have had something to say about it for sure. "That sounds like something I did say. To an extent." She looked at him, a guarded look in her eyes. "Though I never suggested nor mentioned getting rid of your pack." She didn't quite understand why he even said that part. Maybe it was natural for another alpha to say such a thing. Less competition after all. Not that she felt like she was competing with him or anyone else, but who knew if that's what went through the minds of others. "I think a break might be what I need. I've had Ivalice for about a year now, and alot has happened during that time. While it's not nearly as long standing as Abaven, we've been through different things at different times." She pulled herself up to a sitting position then, amber gaze finding the stars above as the breeze ruffled her fur. She didn't want to go home tonight. That was for sure. She knew that if she went back and got questioned by anyone, Vereux especially...she might snap. And her heat was doing nothing to help. That was when the thought crossed her mind. One that had plagued her for a while now. "Can I tell you something?" It was something she needed to get off her chest. Something that had been bothering her for a while now. "Avalon"||"Tanaraq" |
