Teenagers scare the living out of me
10-13-2016, 11:25 PM
Ramsay heard the hiss of air that escaped between her teeth - did she think he was an idiot? Had he made a big, stupid mistake? Was she mad at him? He breathed deeply for a moment, his eyes shifting from side to side as he avoided her gaze for the time being. He knew she'd already said she wouldn't be mad at him, but he couldn't help but feel like he was a disappointment to the family, that he'd ruined things with his loved ones. His ears twitched to the sound of her voice, and he tried to listen above the insanity of his wild, swirling thoughts. Was she really right, that being angry was just part of growing up? He could believe it, but then, he kind of felt like his anger was out of proportion, and like it wouldn't ever end. But he had to agree, no matter how he felt, he knew he had to be there for his family. He'd have to make it work, somehow. When Ash asked him if he felt Vadim shouldn't have challenged him, he nodded tentatively, black-rimmed ears perking when she said she would have felt jealous at the time as well if she'd bee in his place. "Really?" he asked somewhat meekly.
However, he wasn't too concerned with the answer to that when he heard what she said next. Vadim was planning to become a leader, a king? When had he decided that? Ramsay's hackles rose, his ebony-tipped tail flicked into the air. His brother had never discussed this with him. Had he decided it after their fight? His lips curled back slightly as he listened to his sister go on about the plans that Vadim had somehow thought of. How... how had his brother thought of these things, of bringing their family closer after all of this, the bloodshed, the hurt, the fury. Suddenly his legs felt weak, unable to comprehend it all. He felt weak and pathetic. Why did he feel like his anger was consuming him and leaving him helpless, while his brother had walked away from it with thoughts that were clearer than ever?
Slumping to the ground, Ramsay growled, pressing his nose into the ground as his forepaws covered his face, and he squeezed his eyes shut. He felt Ash embrace him again, and her words reached his ears, but he didn't know how to respond. So, they were all supposed to follow Vadim now? Somehow, he was going to have to just be okay with everything, and do what his family did. He wanted to, but envy clouded his thoughts. He sighed, a growling sound rumbling in his throat. "I love you too, Ash... I love you all," he said, knowing he had to confirm it out loud, "Are you really going to follow Vadim? I mean... I want to. O-of course I will... I just..." He shut himself up, having nothing good to say. He wasn't being rational, so it was no use trying to say anything.
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