just let go
06-19-2013, 09:51 PM
She watched him from the corner of her eye as his head lowered to rest against the lightly snow covered ground as he listened to her reply. He was the first person ever that she had told about what had actually happened to her. Everyone that had ever asked before him would always get the same answer: I don't want to talk about it. The would usually apologize after that, saying that they hadn't meant to bring up something so personal and be nosy and she'd usually shrug and say it was ok before they changed the subject or she excused herself and went on her way. No one was ever aware of how the abandonment of her mother really made her feel. Not even Killian now, though she was sure her mannerisms, avoiding eye contact, would probably tip him off that this subject wasn't something she usually liked talking about. She allowed her own head to fall towards her paws, resting against them gently, mismatched gaze flickering to him as his eyes closed, words falling from his lips. I'm sorry to hear that. I know life alone can be... difficult. I know how tough it really is to have family turn its back on you. She allowed her mismatched gaze to meet his ruby one, voice quiet. It can...but you learn to deal with that is given to you. At least I did. I guess, but I didn't really have much of a family to begin with, so it wasn't such a big deal. Again, she was blowing it off. Making it seem as if it didn't bother her that much. And in truth, it didn't, not that much anyway. She'd come to terms that the woman who had given birth to her didn't want her. Oh well. She wasn't going to spend the rest of her life moping around and being depressed because she was unwanted. Big deal. My family was really close, especially my older sister and I. But my sister... she was mistreated by the son of our pack's leaders. I paid him back, but no one was too happy about that. When they exiled me, even my sister looked at me with shame in her eyes and walked away. She'd been abandoned by her mother, so what. Killian had actually had a real family, with parents and siblings. He had had a sister who had really cared about him and who he really cared about. He'd just been trying to look out for her and she had turned her back on him for that...Alessa rose to her paws, a feeling unlike any she had ever felt before filling her chest as she padded to Killian's side, allowing her limbs to fold beneath her as she settled beside him, placing her crown beside his paws, nosing his cheek. I'm really sorry... she whispered, allowing her gaze to follow his, watching as the wintery water made its way down the stream to eventually join some rive or lake. Talk like this |