Hate Me

She ignored him. Every word he said, she ignored. It apparently didn’t matter to her that she was the reason he felt he couldn’t go to her. Nope, it was still his fault. Nope, it was still because he never tried. No, she completely fucking ignored what she’d done in the past, and ignored it again when he brought it up. This was his mother? A woman who would refuse to listen, instead believing that she was right regardless of what actually happened? And ignored all attempts to prove otherwise? This was his mother.

Why did he follow her to Ivalice? Why didn’t he just stay within Imperium’s old lands anyway? Why’d he have to feel that damned obligation to family? If he hadn’t come, then none of this would have happened. He said he didn’t feel any regret in coming, but in that instance he realized he was wrong, even to himself. He did regret coming. Had he not come, then none of this would have happened. He’d have been happier that way, and he’d not have had to find out the true face of Avalon Ancora. And as much as he valued the truth, he’d rather have not known about this. It was painful, seeing this, hearing this. It stabbed at his heart, but also allowed the ice inside grow even further

It wasn’t until Avalon denied his attempt to leave Ivalice did the ice turn into something… more. He was still so, so numb, the sharp pain only dulling it further and further. But this… this sent a spike of some emotion he couldn’t even identify. He wasn’t sure he wanted to, either. It was akin to rage, but… scarier. More deadly, more frightening. He was denied the ability to separate from Ivalice, and then was threatened - told he should feel lucky that he didn’t get demoted further. That if he “messed up” again, then he would be, and severely punished at that. Saying that he could roam but only with assigned escorts.... And then ending the conversation and walking away, without even giving him a say.

Something snapped within him, and he lunged after her, a lard snarl ripping from his throat as he stood half-crouched, still several feet away. He had not been lunging after her in order to attack her, after all. "You would prevent me from leaving?" he hissed, ears flattening at the outrage. Whatever happened to her being okay with her kids having separate paths - did that no longer matter, now that she was alpha of her pack? First, she tells them that it was their choice to follow or stay, saying she would not judge them for their choice. Then she uses it against him, revealing she was bitter about it all along, and that she believed by him staying that he was not loyal. Then, she turns around and prevents him from separating from the pack. "You call me a traitor, and yet all I’ve done is confide in a wolf I trust. You tell me I never tried, but then ignore the fact that when all of us tried, you became angry. And then you ignore that fact? You told us we had the choice to stay or go, and that you would not think less of that. But here you are, telling me that ‘at least they were loyal to their family’. Has everything you’ve said to be a lie? And here you are again, refusing me my freedom to leave. And now you walk away! What a mother you are!” His voice dropped on the last few words, growling them out past his rage that was nearly palpable. "If I am nothing better than my father to you, then perhaps you deserved him - and you deserve the oathbreaker you’ve chosen this time!” Derision rang in his voice, challenging, and ringing with something that was clear: honesty. He believed every word he said at this moment. “If you do not release me, then I challenge you, Avalon Ancora, Chieftain of Ivalice, for my freedom to leave this pack!" 



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