Hazy Shade of Winter
12-06-2016, 02:35 PM
Feeling broken and beaten for so long had truly done a number on Caelum, leaving her feeling hopeless for so long. Their last interaction only served to worsen her emotional pain. Now that they finally were able to meet in relative peace and speak gently they began to resurface - those memories of the previous meeting, how it left her distraught for seasons until she only recently began to truly start to recover. She felt at fault for ruining this. If only she could have lay still and enjoyed their closeness for hours on end. But alas, the ghosts that haunted her mind would command that this was not to be.
The tears still had not stopped, in fact they'd flow quicker the more she remained here, shaking in a state of confusion. She was weak. Even if time had returned some of her strength, her current actions spoke volumes about how far she still had to go before she would begin to approach strength. It was tempting to reverse roles this time. Now that the peace was shattered and rendered irreparable she could take her turn if she so desired. She could tell him that if he'd never left that night maybe he would've been there. She could leave him hurting as he had done to her. The muscles in her mouth tensed, seeking to open and deliver a fierce barrage of words. The words never came though. Only more tears, which would drip from her cheeks and hang in the air for but a breath before hitting the ground and slowly freezing there. She couldn't do it. Maybe that was a good thing.
His single word hit her ears and ran straight to her chest, leaving behind a sharp pain as though she had been struck physically. Why must he have such sway over her? The gusts of chilly air carrying a wave of snow with it could hardly hope to move her as easily as he did with but a single word. She swayed gently, as if she might loose her balance and topple over at any second. It took great self control to keep herself planted where she was for so long. His word - that single word spoken so softly she'd barely heard it - had left her almost powerless. Her mind raced. She knew it was too late to cease her exit from this place, yet she didn't want to leave him like this. She wanted him to know she wasn't just running from him as she had before. She wasn't exiting the scene with no explanation or hope for a future interaction. Thinking things over never seemed to get her anywhere though. In that case, she would let herself simply flow with what felt right.
Her right front leg was the first to move from it's place planted in the now frozen soil. It was placed firmly before her, not in a motion to leave but rather to execute an volte-face, so she would face him once more, walking towards him, no, running. She dashed back to him, Ears flat and eyes narrowed so she might see through the increasing snowfall. Quickly she would run, sliding to a stop before him and aiming to plant a single kiss on his cheek, whispering with conviction, "I promise this isn't goodbye, Zephyr." Her eyes gazed into his for what seemed like an eternity, though it was only a heartbeat, before she raced off, down one of the paths she'd been considering earlier. She was unsure where it might lead, but that wouldn't easily stop her. Her small winged companion would dart into view from her right, following her and chirping excitedly now that they were on the move again.
While she was entirely clueless about where she was going, she knew she needed to have some room to breathe just for a moment. Zephyr was in the same lands... And, apparently so was Asha though Cae was less interested in that. The whole thing was overwhelming her, leaving her confused and finding it difficult to know what to do. Yes, some space just for a bit might be what she needed. Cae was increasingly determined to fix herself. She would find a way to feel better, even if it took some time. Right now though it was all too much.
-exit Caelum-
The tears still had not stopped, in fact they'd flow quicker the more she remained here, shaking in a state of confusion. She was weak. Even if time had returned some of her strength, her current actions spoke volumes about how far she still had to go before she would begin to approach strength. It was tempting to reverse roles this time. Now that the peace was shattered and rendered irreparable she could take her turn if she so desired. She could tell him that if he'd never left that night maybe he would've been there. She could leave him hurting as he had done to her. The muscles in her mouth tensed, seeking to open and deliver a fierce barrage of words. The words never came though. Only more tears, which would drip from her cheeks and hang in the air for but a breath before hitting the ground and slowly freezing there. She couldn't do it. Maybe that was a good thing.
His single word hit her ears and ran straight to her chest, leaving behind a sharp pain as though she had been struck physically. Why must he have such sway over her? The gusts of chilly air carrying a wave of snow with it could hardly hope to move her as easily as he did with but a single word. She swayed gently, as if she might loose her balance and topple over at any second. It took great self control to keep herself planted where she was for so long. His word - that single word spoken so softly she'd barely heard it - had left her almost powerless. Her mind raced. She knew it was too late to cease her exit from this place, yet she didn't want to leave him like this. She wanted him to know she wasn't just running from him as she had before. She wasn't exiting the scene with no explanation or hope for a future interaction. Thinking things over never seemed to get her anywhere though. In that case, she would let herself simply flow with what felt right.
Her right front leg was the first to move from it's place planted in the now frozen soil. It was placed firmly before her, not in a motion to leave but rather to execute an volte-face, so she would face him once more, walking towards him, no, running. She dashed back to him, Ears flat and eyes narrowed so she might see through the increasing snowfall. Quickly she would run, sliding to a stop before him and aiming to plant a single kiss on his cheek, whispering with conviction, "I promise this isn't goodbye, Zephyr." Her eyes gazed into his for what seemed like an eternity, though it was only a heartbeat, before she raced off, down one of the paths she'd been considering earlier. She was unsure where it might lead, but that wouldn't easily stop her. Her small winged companion would dart into view from her right, following her and chirping excitedly now that they were on the move again.
While she was entirely clueless about where she was going, she knew she needed to have some room to breathe just for a moment. Zephyr was in the same lands... And, apparently so was Asha though Cae was less interested in that. The whole thing was overwhelming her, leaving her confused and finding it difficult to know what to do. Yes, some space just for a bit might be what she needed. Cae was increasingly determined to fix herself. She would find a way to feel better, even if it took some time. Right now though it was all too much.
-exit Caelum-