Reap Just What You Sow

N/A · 06-22-2013, 12:57 PM

Gabriel

Gabriel knew, somewhere in his heart of hearts that he would struggle with these... emotions until his dying day, he knew that he was over-reacting, he knew the thoughts and feelings swiveling within his chest were unreasonable, but he felt them anyway and they devastated him. He didn't know that later on in life he would be crippled, torn down by the mental nuisances that would plague him, and as he grew such things would only grow worse. It hadn't been a wound inflicted upon him, nor an injury. No one had caused this disturbance in him, nothing devastatingly tragic had occurred in his life, it would develop into a mental disorder that was coded in his DNA, it could not be treated, he just didn't know it yet and he took these blows of depression the best way he could...without complaint.

He wondered if his family would reject him if these fast moods would ever drive him away, he didn't know, he didn't even know why he felt so utterly horrible, even if he wished it he couldn't explain it, he was stuck, drowning in his own problems, problems he could not articulate because he knew something was wrong, something was off other than the sudden abandonment of his elder sister. She had promised, and she was gone and he was entitled to be angry, but that should have passed, should have been replaced by gentle understanding but it wasn't and Gabriel was tired of thinking, tired of analyzing and he stood, rising to leave the male behind him. He didn't wanna talk anymore.

But of course life was cruel and decided to throw him another curveball, the male couldn't let him be because Valhalla was a family and each and every one of its members cared. They cared too much, and for the first time, Gabriel felt bitter towards his homes philosophies. He stopped at the barked words, ears swinging backwards to pin against his cranium, tail hanging listlessly between his legs and eyes narrowed into dangerous points. Darkness, cynicism, hatred, they colored his words and painted his toxic lyrics in a tone that never should have graced such a young creatures tongue. "Can you crack open my skull? Root your way through my brain to find what's wrong with me? Can you rewind time and prevent my sister from leaving me for some Seracian Prince? Can you make her keep her promises? Can you stop my siblings from teasing me, taunting me, smearing dirt on my coat? You cannot change things that are beyond your power, I cannot change things that are not within my power, do not give me false hope, stop lying to me!" By the end of his words his voice had climbed to a scream, eyes wild and unfocused he lost himself in his speech, his anger, his frustration. Nobody understood him, nobody tried to understand him and this... this male was trying to fill him with so many falsities! Gabriel wanted to hurt him! Wanted to bite him!

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