To You, My Heart I Surrender
02-27-2017, 02:03 PM
(This post was last modified: 02-27-2017, 02:04 PM by Bass.)
  She was silent for a moment before scooting closer to him, her words rushing to break the silence. He let out a sigh and flinched slightly, it was actually his fault this time. "I could smell her lingering at the borders, so I erm... I followed her and sought her out..." He looked away from the pale woman, clearing his throat before he went on. "I yelled at her, demanded answers why she just seems to be okay with wandering in and out of our lives. I've never wanted to hurt someone so much in my life... my own mate. Ex mate I guess..." His voice cracked a bit, but he shook his head and turned back towards Vali. "She just stood there Vali. As I asked for answers that I think I deserve she did nothing. Did she even love me? How could she if she's okay with hurting me like this? I just... I finally wanted to know why. But I got nothing, just a brick wall. So I walked away." There was such a clear sign of pain in his yellow gaze, of hurt and betrayal. "Even in that moment I felt that I loved her still, but as she just stared at me with a blank gaze, allowed my words of hurt and anger to just fall flat... it all broke. My heart tore in two as I walked away from her on that beach. All those years together, the moments we shared and our children," Bass' voice broke on the last part, his head hanging down. "They had to grow up without a mother. They learned that just disappearing and reappearing is fine because their mother did it too. And I always welcomed her back. This is all my fault Vali, all of this. Pipit being gone, Sparrow not able to find happiness, it's all because of me." Bass had always felt guilty, and perhaps he was having a little 'woe-is-me; moment, but he had never admitted it out loud like this. Just how much of this guilt had been on his shoulders? Was it why he felt far older than six? He had no idea, and once more he didn't get to have any answers. He was forever left in the dark as his own worst enemy. The man was certain that he would never be able to love again, to never allow anyone into his life as he had with Wren. How could he set his kids up for even more disappointment? He would just have to take what he had; his pack and his kids and die happy. Otherwise he was going to spend the rest of his life being miserable. But he was lonely. His heart ached for companionship, or what was left of it anyways. With a sigh he turned and pressed his nose into Vali's shoulder, his eyes sliding closed. "SPEAK" "SPEAK ITALIAN" |
