As she waited her mind drifted back to the mistakes she has made and the dishonor she felt she had brought to her family. She was to pitch in and help the pack survive and she had done the vary minor of it. She remembered the words Regulus spoke at the last pack meeting she had attended and her ears flattened against her head. She also dropped her head and closed her eyes as she realized what rank she would hold if even welcomed back. She had failed and she had let her extended family down. All the trouble that had went through into creating this pack and she didn't even fallow the rules. She sighed her heart tightening. She didn't even deserve to be let back into the pack.
What would she do now? After her mind drifted over things she felt like she needed to run away, to be a coward and never show her face around here again. That would bring more shame to her family then she had already brought and the women didn't want to let her family down anymore. She was embarrassed and ashamed of herself, but could she make things better? Would she ever be able to prove to the pack that she was worth being let back in? All she could do was try and she wanted to try and to prove herself worthy. She hated being alone and wanted to be with others. 'There is other packs and I could start fresh no one would know of the shame but myself' she thought. Then the guilt stretched her nerves again and her gut ached in protest. She would know and she would never feel completely happy unless she made it up to Celestial.
Then the large red form arrived, his steps drew her from her thoughts and made her eyes pop open. She suddenly felt even sicker and licked her lips out of nervousness. Regulus was a kind soul, but the punishment for her deeds and her deeds in general made her ill. He didn't ask how she was, didn't embrace her with a warm hug, in fact he was rather cold and made her feel worse and worse by the minute. She dropped her head again as he spoke, ears pinned to her head still. What could she even say? There was no excuses and no reason good enough to let her come back home. She sighed again and figured she would start with why she left.
"I feared that Dagger had wandered off to die, or worse be killed by someone in his sick state. It's the reason I left, but there is no explanation I can give for why I couldn't say something to you," she couldn't look at him, to ashamed of herself. "I wanted to come home, but honestly there is no reason you should let me I have failed you and the pack several times and I don't deserve any ounce of courtesy from anyone." What else could she say?
