On Hold
06-02-2017, 12:54 PM
Sparrow didn't know hoe to react when the spitfire woman's voice came out so low and filled with guilt. For a moment, Peregrine reminded Sparrow of Wren. The small girl's eyes dashed to the side, "Yeah, that's what Mom always said too," she spat under her breath.
Sparrow didn't mean to make such an accusation and quickly opened her maw to correct it. No words came out. She needed to try again. She stepped forward, "I- Pere, wait." Sparrow didn't know what to say or even think. She felt like time and time again anyone she relied on left her. She hated it. It kept her up at night. She wondered if it was her. Why was it always her? What was wrong with her?
She didn't want to drop the blame either. She wanted to know why. She needed to know something to move past it. She left her pack too, right? She expected her family to understand too, right? She needed to do the same, but she didn't want to be led in a loop like her father had been with Wren.
Sparrow rushed forward trying to make contact with Peregrine. She just wanted to be close to the other, even if it was selfish.
"Look, you don't have to tell me right away. I-" She hesitated, trying to choose her words carefully, "I'm so glad you're back and that you're okay. I just... I really can't stand being left alone. My mother, my friend from Imperium... you... They all just leave, okay? I really hate it... Why does everyone leave for so long?"
Sparrow's voice caught and she coughed. Her voice was trembling. This wasn't good. She felt too strongly, she needed to back up, "I mean- I don't need you by my side all the time, I just- I mean- as friends- It's just- It was so long... sudden... Are all out-of-pack friends like that? Are we supposed to be like this?"
The small girl felt so confused. Did she even have the right to be mad? She pulled back, trying to blink away the tears in her eyes. She went to speak again, but her voice just cracked. The small woman shook her head, "You said you didn't have a choice... Just, give me your reason. Let me know you aren't just making up excuses. You- maybe not right now, but I just need to know you aren't just playing with me..."
Sparrow backed up a little more, "I know it's selfish to ask that, I know it is, but I just- how do I know you're really back for real?"
Sparrow didn't mean to make such an accusation and quickly opened her maw to correct it. No words came out. She needed to try again. She stepped forward, "I- Pere, wait." Sparrow didn't know what to say or even think. She felt like time and time again anyone she relied on left her. She hated it. It kept her up at night. She wondered if it was her. Why was it always her? What was wrong with her?
She didn't want to drop the blame either. She wanted to know why. She needed to know something to move past it. She left her pack too, right? She expected her family to understand too, right? She needed to do the same, but she didn't want to be led in a loop like her father had been with Wren.
Sparrow rushed forward trying to make contact with Peregrine. She just wanted to be close to the other, even if it was selfish.
"Look, you don't have to tell me right away. I-" She hesitated, trying to choose her words carefully, "I'm so glad you're back and that you're okay. I just... I really can't stand being left alone. My mother, my friend from Imperium... you... They all just leave, okay? I really hate it... Why does everyone leave for so long?"
Sparrow's voice caught and she coughed. Her voice was trembling. This wasn't good. She felt too strongly, she needed to back up, "I mean- I don't need you by my side all the time, I just- I mean- as friends- It's just- It was so long... sudden... Are all out-of-pack friends like that? Are we supposed to be like this?"
The small girl felt so confused. Did she even have the right to be mad? She pulled back, trying to blink away the tears in her eyes. She went to speak again, but her voice just cracked. The small woman shook her head, "You said you didn't have a choice... Just, give me your reason. Let me know you aren't just making up excuses. You- maybe not right now, but I just need to know you aren't just playing with me..."
Sparrow backed up a little more, "I know it's selfish to ask that, I know it is, but I just- how do I know you're really back for real?"