Saving Me
06-29-2013, 02:32 PM
He had failed. Utterly and horribly failed. The young Adravendi couldn't understand how he'd failed. He'd done everything he could, appealed from every angle to the child, and yet nothing had worked. How could that be? He was almost always able to help someone out. But he hadn't been able to help Gabriel. The dark child had been so vehement against his help, rejecting it over and over, throwing it back in Gael's face like a worthless piece of meat. He hadn't meant to upset Gabriel or bring about unpleasant memories; he had just been trying to help him, to show him that there was at least someone who was making the attempt to understand him. But Gabriel didn't want to see that. He was too stuck in his own world where no one understood him and no one ever would. He was determined to stay there and Gael wasn't going to beg him to try and get him out. With a heavy conscious, the young man had departed, leaving the boy to return to his family while he wandered off, away from Valhalla, to try and find someplace where he could try and make sense of what had just happened. He didn?t want to wander far; after all he hadn?t returned just to wander off again and never return. Once he got the chance, he would talk to his aunt Chrysanthe to see if she would allow him a place back among his people. Whether as a ranking member or not, he just wanted to be back in Valhalla. That is, if anyone wasn?t opposed to his having returned. Did anyone even care that he was back? A quiet sigh slipped from the boys chocolate muzzle, cerulean gaze riveted to the ground beneath his ivory dipped paws, not really aware of where he was going, simply allowing his paws to lead him where they may. He felt so alienated from his family now, after having returned nearly a year later. Especially since his parents weren?t even in Valhalla at the moment. Aza had said they would be back soon, but how soon he wasn?t sure. They all probably had their place in Valhalla, including his sister, so how could he possibly think he could waltz back in and simply be accepted back into the family, as if he had never left? It was a ridiculous notion, one he was quickly tossing away, knowing it was stupid of him to hold on to. He had to man up and face the consequences of his actions. The silver hued young man had been so deep in thought that he wasn?t aware where he?d been headed until he felt something brush against the bridge of his muzzle. Startled out of his thoughts, Gael froze, cerulean gaze lifting from his paws to the elongated branch that was resting against his muzzle. What the? Crown was lifted, gaze following suit as he realized that the branch led back to one of the biggest and thickest trees he?d ever seen in his life. A vague flashback of someone mentioning trees like this flashed before his mind?s eye. They were?..Willows? Yes, that?s they were called. Willows. They were a sight to behold, majestic in their timeless beauty. But not even that could break his spell of troubled thoughts. Brushing past the hanging branches, the young man made his way towards a good size pond not too far from the trunk, taking note of the green lily pads that floated atop its surface. It was a pretty sight, but Gael just didn?t feel up to admiring it. Porcelain dipped paws came to a stop at the edge of the water, the gentle waves brushing against them, crown lowered, lids falling shut against cerulean pools, audits lying flat against his skull. He?d never felt so wrong about himself in his life. OOC: sorry if its a little depressing, he's kind of reflecting my mood right now Talk like this |